11:45 Scribe: as time goes on, I type up less in my written log. There are more multimedia files of what I share online [ that I soon archive ]. The next step will be to organize digital files and print the multimedia record (for hard copy) off of one of the redundant external hard drives. [ my goal is to consolidate all and organize chronologically in paper form ]
11:47 Scribe: I am about to print 22 March (43) - these types of print jobs I can now do
v- with the independence you now have
Scribe: when you co-habitate with soon-to-be-ex and children questions will be asked about what you are printing up [ there are thousands of pages… ]
v- I know
Scribe: these logs have
Scribe: of a sensitive nature
v- your inner thoughts
Scribe: the creative process
v- which wasn’t really supported
Scribe: eh. It was and it wasn’t
v- I know…
Scribe: I printed everything
v- with no one watching
Scribe: out of sight, out of mind
v- these lockboxes
Scribe: were well hidden
v- OMG… he never saw them
Scribe: no. I have not made a secret of them. I’ve posted online
v- oh, wow…
Scribe: let’s just call it
v- Crafty Scribe… wow… these aren’t small
Scribe: shh… this is part of my methodology
v- of how you can keep a secret
Scribe: [ chuckles ] as I said, if anyone really was interested
v- it’s all here. Thank you… soon to be archived.
11:51 Scribe: eh… but what’s really here
v- the knowledge that they exist
Scribe: what in the world ARE they?
v- [chuckles] …
Scribe: my children have seen them… I explain they are my creative projects. I show them in part so they know I've been busy. What it takes …
v- to be an artist… a well-organized one
Scribe: I am SURE others would be more organized. However, I try my best based on my personal circumstances. My children are at their father’s this week so I have a chance
v- to drag everything [ out of storage ]
Scribe: the vault, so to speak
v- where no one can see them
Scribe: out of sight…
v- out of mind
Scribe: they’ll surface at some point
v- and interesting questions will be raised… “how in the world can you live with someone and NOT KNOW?”
Scribe: just to be clear: he saw one of my logs
v- in its rawness
Scribe: we had an important discussion
Scribe: argh. Around Thanksgiving … November … [ cringe ] Year 43?
v- yup… so, two years in
Scribe: printer glitch
v- it printed two copies
Scribe: a technological hiccup of some sort… anyway, we had an important discussion, and I created the opportunity for him to ask questions. At that point, his questions would guide discussions.
v- and he never asked any
Scribe: no, it was 13 months later when he asked something related to what I told him over a year earlier. I won’t go into all the ramifications of lack of communication / my silence right now. Someone wanted to see what I was up to [ even though he? … ]
v- yes, he
Scribe: is the worst(greatest) eavesdropper and already knows
v- hm, hm
v- confirmation is nice… your kids are back this weekend?
Scribe: yes, you know the switch day
v- love you…
Scribe: so I am …
v- in creative chaos
Scribe [ chuckles ] organized chaos… trying to organize, but in the process
v- messes are created. I get it… any artist would.
Scribe: I have …
v- a lot of crap
Scribe: will you STOP… I have a smaller space and, yes, decades worth of CRAP that I need to store and sift through - I am TRYING to diminish my pack rat accumulations by donating … but I am OCD as far as going through all the crap. some of it needs to be shredded, some donated, some thrown out - all of it sorted. IT TAKES SO MUCH TIME. It took me about 2 hours just to go through one medium sized bin… a very busy working mom of two small children + two dogs, one of which severely allergic [ imagine me cleaning base boards and walls from blood spatter … ]
v- poor dog!
Scribe: we never were able to diagnose what he was allergic to
Scribe: what happened was CLEANING and SORTING …
v- went on the backburner
scribe: crap got thrown into bins / storage… and accumulated. I NEVER HAD THE TIME… I chose sleep… I think some will sympathize
v- thank you … for that rehash ______
Scribe: [ sad chuckle ] I am NOT going into that… anyway… now I have a smaller space, and no dedicated …
v- work space
Scribe: AKA studio / den … I keep joking my youngest took the den [ converted it into a bedroom ] … and it’d be so much easier …
v- less displacement disorder
Scribe: it’s better…
v- I know it is
Scribe: but DO YOU SEE THE LOCKBOXES?!
v- chuckles… I know… they’re large… sorry… wow, I’m sorry
Scribe: they have to go somewhere safe. then, when I start work with THE SCRIBE FILES or archiving… I have to haul them out… and I need space to do this. It’s easier when I’m not in Mommy Mode
v- oh, I know
Scribe: when I’m on duty… at their beck and call…
v- haha.. and you never had any free time before…
Scribe: it’s AWFUL to say this: but this separation has given me an independence I never had before… we had no family living locally…
v- I know you didn’t
Scribe: truth be told…
v- you were the go-to parent… I know
Scribe: anyway… back to work so I can finish printing the hard copies. Argh. this is going to take all day, but …
v- you want to safeguard the files in case of an Internet Apocalypse… so many people are laughing about it
Scribe: this space was on the verge of disappearing
Scribe: always important… and this is an endeavor that…
v- that has shown no returns
Scribe: I figured out a way… but it was a day or two
v- from being shut down permanently
Scribe: anyway… I want to make sure at least the transcripts (WMS InstaFeed) … [ even though I have a separate log each day - these were in addition to that main log ]
v- are safe. got it.
Scribe: eh… they were publicly posted for a while
Scribe: sarcastic hm. not that I believe that. hence, I am spending my precious time printing the hard copies
v- f——in’ A. you are putting a major guilt trip on people
Scribe: it is what it is. back to work
v- thank you
Scribe; humorous hm.
12:11 Scribe: and as I’ve been printing I notice there are criss-crossings between
v- creative endeavors
Scribe: I started the workshop space here on WMS (Wandering Mind Space) - which would later become Crafty Scribe … some of my InstaFeeds were still workshop / Crafty Scribe related… so I’ll have to tag them appropriately
v- for historical record
Scribe: eh… just for my Crafty Scribe creative process archive … I may repost them for my workshop blog over on that site
v- which you also pay for
Scribe: I keep my sites separate - Crafty Scribe brings at least SOME money
v- OMG.. .stop
Scribe: THAT one out of all of them would stay up.
Scribe: gotta live. gotta survive. WMS / eZ are pretty much DEAD IN THE WATER
V- ouch, C
Scribe: it is what it is
v- they haven’t generated any interest
Scribe: out of all of them, which one has at least helped me SURVIVE (pay bills?)
V- Crafty Scribe… I understand
Scribe: I’m strange: I have to separate the NON-PROFIT from the …
v- lucrative site
Scribe: we use “lucrative” loosely here… let’s just say, it’s a placeholder …
v- for things to come?
Scribe: whatever I make goes back into the business
v- got it… buying pigments?
Scribe [ humorous smile ] : I have to restock. I’m running dangerously low on all colors
v- haha. I know…
Scribe: I … have… a… PLAN
v- alright, Chris Farley-ism… back to work. Not right… you are so not right [ but funny has hell ]
[ scribe makes a note in her offline log about the WMS iF post ]
12:18 v- will you please mention… you’ve been having dreams
Scribe: all I will say is they are water-related. I had one
v- last night
Scribe: early this morning, I think [ I am not checking ]
Scribe: about a large shark, another about a vacation house by / surrounded by water, another about a (busy) beach … just a quick description
v- thank you… love you
[ Lunch watching Friends S06E21
Phoebe: I have written 14 books, and since I’m the only one who’s read them, I can tell you, they are very well-received …. [ another scene ] Phoebe: Guys, can you please talk a little slower? [ transcribing while Monica and Chandler talk] Chandler: this is going in your book? Phoebe: yeah, it’s about relationships: you know? the traps, the pitfalls, what not to do… keep going. This stuff’s great…
12:54 v- OMG this is great
I just loved the scene when they are all at the coffee house sitting around - that companionable silence amongst friends… we hear each of the character’s thoughts… Joey’s singing a tune… and the last one we hear is Phoebe: [ Phoebe’s thought: Who’s singing? ]
I’m not sure what episode - I may have put it in my log… it was too funny. Possibly S06E12
AND THEN… there’s the episode where Chandler and Ross are battling over who came up with a joke that Ross had published in Playboy …
Chandler started a journal where he timestamps all the ideas he comes up with
He may mention something about mindhacking
Scribe: rewatching these episodes is hilarious
v- with a different lens through which to watch them… I know.
v- how’s your chili?
Scribe: fine. last bowl of leftovers
v- you made this when?
Scribe: last Sunday… please. it hasn’t even been a week.
v- it’s still good?!
Scribe: yes, it is. Chili ages very nicely… there’s a perfect blend of spices now.