17 Sept (45)

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08:44 Scribe: Let’s briefly discuss the InnerNet, silence (from certain suspects) and (social) media triggers.

08:47 Scribe: creepy scientist guy who “helps” his patients in... 

Scribe’s interaction with MEDIA ( The Innocents )  [ 09:32 Scribe: the InnerNet is a merging of two consciousnesses. It is the connection of two bodyminds.  The Innocents  is about shapeshifters, but there is also a transference of consciousnesses. I haven’t finished Season 1 yet. ]

Scribe’s interaction with MEDIA (The Innocents)

[ 09:32 Scribe: the InnerNet is a merging of two consciousnesses. It is the connection of two bodyminds. The Innocents is about shapeshifters, but there is also a transference of consciousnesses. I haven’t finished Season 1 yet. ]

THEN, Scribe interacts (observes) Hunter’s image post. No comment, no tag. I just take note of the pattern. Again. Again a pattern with Hunter, an InnerNet “team member.” Another synchronicity between Hunter and my “journey” through the quantum Well Hell. That well of possibilities : one being that I  have to consider that this journalist is involved with whatever is going on with regards to the InnerNet (telepathy/quantum spookiness) research & development. Hunter is interested in science, among a wide variety of subjects - very STEAMy she is ). Or maybe she has nothing to do with what I’ve called the InnerNet (and its dissemination / furthering it’s future acceptance).

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09:03 Scribe: Like Trickster, she is a public figure. The real person behind the character Hunter is MARIA POPOVA. She ALSO did not respond to my THANK YOU for being the inspiration for the character Hunter in A Wandering Mind when I was FICTIONALIZING my InnerNet experiences. 

09:06 Scribe: So, how do I react to this? I am a Nobody. Why would she?

Why respond to the unassuming e-mail that I sent, offering to send her a calligraphic copy of unpublished creative pieces as a thank you gift?  

09:08 Scribe: another experience to chalk up to this whole journey: to realize how insignificant you really are in the whole SCHEME of things

v- are you suggesting there is malicious intent involved in the InnerNet? 

09:09 Scribe: oh, shall I count the days? I don’t care that she didn’t respond. It put me in my place: I am a No one. I bring it down to a personal level. Why WOULD she respond to me? There’d be no reason to. She’s a critic (refreshed my profile if her by reading an online bio of her).

I’m probably not anyone worth her precious time. My writing’s not that great - not on par with, you know, those classics she highlights. I could never be that. Never assumed My writing was.  

Personally? I was being sincere. I was reaching out. Thought I was doing the right thing since she was the source material for Hunter’s character.

09:13 Scribe: Yeah, that data. Meaningless unless there is a way to crossreference it all. I lose my motivation to share what research I’ve done, even if it’s mainly my observations. It’s been over four years and no one has come forward. 

So, I have to consider day in and day out that there is no connection of an unusual kind (the InnerNet) - with anyone. Maybe Hunter isn’t connected. Maybe it’s just Trickster. Maybe Hunter is just an accelerator: a public figure to build a strong foundation - a network of scientists (and others) who would be witnesses, who might have solid

v- reputable  

Scribe: explanations - when the time comes - to explain what happened to me

v- us

09:18 Scribe : that’s my best case scenario. What I’m living? Not so much.

09:19 Scribe: this is why I datafast on occasion. What I observe never matters in the end. 

V- double-edged sword

Scribe: and WanderingMindSpace is not public domain for a reason. I wish I could AFFORD to have that be the case.

[  I have to protect whatever this is as either a creative piece (crediting required) or the non-commercial aspect (if it is for research purposes). 

Creative Commons LicensingAttribution Non-Commercial No Derivatives 4.0 International

THAT is why I’ve made sure to license most everything I post publicly - either with “no derivatives” or WITH CREDIT assignations - WMS is non-profit - I get nothing (financially) for publishing anything here  ]

V- it’s all out of pocket, I know

09:20 Scribe: if ANYTHING is to come out of this STORY please let it be all I wanted was someone to say “Yes” or “No” to my question  

ARE YOU TELEPATHICALLY CONNECTED TO ME? 

And prove it to me. No one else. To me. Just so I could have peace of mind. (So I didn’t have to waste my time and make so many sacrifices that were UNNECESSARY if someone would have come forward sooner - to me. Only to me.)

THAT is the type of well hell I’ve been trapped in for 4+ years

v- Sinisthereal Nothing

Scribe: yes, my poem: “...my confinement”

09:23

09:26 Scribe: so, now, I get back to what I should be doing: what matters. What is more important: Normalcy. I am reminded daily of how I wasted four years of my life on a Nothing. It - the InnerNet -still haunts me every day and there is NOTHING I can do to get rid of it. I’ve tried a little bit of everything ... as far as any NORMAL person in my circumstances would do. 

09:45 Scribe: so, to compare: What i’ve Seen? The resemblances, sometimes striking, between A Wandering Mind and other things in the media? I see COMMERCIAL resemblances.

09:46 Scribe: I realize to build s foundation of acceptance  

v- it has to be mainstream

Scribe: but not to notify someone that affects - is it or isn’t it? - is morally wrong. [ I never wanted money or fame - that’s why I tried to keep it private, mask it in creative peaces? Hide my tracks - archiving after I post. Try to protect others’ relutations And mine. I just wanted an answer from whoever or whatever is affecting me. ]

v- you have so many people on your side who realize how difficult it is

09:50 v- so, now you’re crowdsourcing? 

Scribe: no. If someone stumbles upon a post? I urge them to folllw me, Maria Popova, Jason Silva (Trickster). Do your homework & your own research. Am I just a dimwitted nonsensical bafoon? Or is there something to my story?

09:51 Scribe: why would I do all this for so long?

v- you’re disturbed 

Scribe [ sad chuckle ]  ... Check out who I am. Talk to who knows me. Find out out for yourself before you judge just by what I post.  Here in InstaFeed I record my observations of what I now call

CREATIVE ADJACENCIES  

09:54 Scribe: i’ll be the first to tell snyone

BE DISCERNING

Can you rule out the possibilities I suggest? 

if you can’t, keep researching & observing. 

09:55 Scribe: the sad truth is: no one will waste their precious time on me. And to miss that opportunity

v- you miss so much  

Scribe: you win’t Put two and two together

v- to come up with gour

Sctibe. You won’t be crossreferencing data .., you just have DATA - in isolation. 

09:56 v- you could go anything, C

Scribe: but i’ve wasted my time on this shit... 

09:57 Scribe: for apparently, other peoples’ Benefit (all cheery) 

v- sarcastically cheery  

09:58 Scribe: this has been a public service announcement about telepathy. 

09:58 Scribe: a word to the wise: don’t trust who may be connected to me. I trust whoever it may be less and less as time goes on. 

10:00 Scribe. Telepathy is NOT a reliable form of communication. It has NOT proven to be trustworthy. 

10:01 Scribe: if it were, the ceaseless promises would have already come true. 

10:02 Scribe: I put what the Voice (V) said to the test many times in many ways.

The voice lied. 

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In addition to the slide carousel viewing sessions in The Innocents that resemble my social media research (and triggers)

* the two consciousnesses merging aspect of shapeshifting characters in The Innocents

*a creepy scientist who treats patients in a commune type setting (unofficially, off-the-record)

Visit “Spin” to read about when Trickster revealed himself

27 August (Year 41 - 1st year, three months after first InnerNet symptoms felt)

02:41
VOICE: This is Trickster.
[ JASON SILVA ]
ME: Trickster?
[ JASON SILVA ] That doesn’t make any sense.
[Rational Mind: My mind is playing tricks on me.]

02:48
ME: … multiple people playing games? … THE Trickster? The comedian
[ host ] on “Prank” [ BRAIN GAMES ] !?! That’s not even funny.
VOICE: We think it is…
ME: Oh, when we meet, and we will, we will have words.
VOICE: Seriously, we’re doing research and we need more than one person to conduct the experiments.
ME: I’m sure you are aware that research subjects need to be notified and permission given…

I include source material within brackets for emphasis.

here are some additional take-aways: Synchronicities between The Innocents and my InnerNet journey AKA A Wandering Mind.

CREATIVE ADJACENCY

18 January (Year 41 - 1st year) IdeaSpace Post

Horizon's seaming light,

a sunshaded distortion.

Night spotlights

a mooncast apparition.

Darksheeted billows

foreshadow

a maskless spirit.

Manifest your Self

with an empowering beat,

a melodious airlift,

a silhouetted pirouette.

I add a little shadow dancing to my walks. Any twists to your exercise routine? 

Music clips:

"Cut Your Teeth" by Kyla La Grange (Kygo Remix)

"Solo Dancing" by Indiana

"Magic" by Coldplay

"On and on" by Erykah Badu

10:32 Scribe: it’s a loose connection, but it is a connection. One of my routines was to find lyrics of songs I liked and post them via (external) InstaFeed - lyrics that included resemblances to my InnerNet Experiences.

my (external) InstaFeed post:


Don’t hold back

My dance devotion

It’s the path that I have chosen

Hypnotized by the law of motion

Music stop & the spell is broken

-Indiana

10:34 Scribe: yes, it can be explained away as a song that the show’s writers/creators thought would be good for a certain scene

Along with Netflix creators of Ibiza “Light” by San Holo

Sense8 “ “Feeling Good” by Nina Simone (there’s a dragonfly in the lyrics… a mascot of sorts for A Wandering Mind); “Rather Be” by Clean Bandit (feat. Jess Glynne)

those songs are the ones that immediately come to mind. Yes. There’s a pattern I’ve picked up on between Netflix releases.

Excuse the mixture of fictionalized names (IdeaSpace, InstaFeed) and real names (Netflix). At some point, I am sure to fictionalize Netflix, too.

10:41 looking at Ibiza soundtrack list - just to double check (it’s been a while) … and I remember one of the main characters is a DJ [ of COURSE another DJ [ resemblance with A Wandering Mind - DJ is another team member (spacetime com specialist) ] … there have been other DJs recently in tv shows, etc - after I started conceptualizing DJ for A Wandering Mind - that I can’t recall at the moment - call me suspicious. ]

v- you like that actor

Scribe: yes, from Medici [ I like my historical “period” dramas ]

v- [ chuckles ] I know why you put that

Scribe: that Scribe and her POINT.

10:45 Scribe: … the resemblance with a DJ: there’s a DJ in Sense8 … there have been other DJs recently in tv shows, etc - after I started conceptualizing DJ for A Wandering Mind

V- and your possible concept that DJ could be AI…

Scribe: [ not fully fleshed out ] and the infamous handwritten tranScript talking about how the InnerNet is assisting AI development [ somewhere in the archives. who knows where - I have thousands of pages now ]

…I started noticing creative adjacencies with DJ characters… an unusual number of DJs - other than the shows I list I can’t recall at the moment more - call me suspicious. ]

10:46

10:48 Scribe: [ reading YouTube video comment that I wrote a while ago ] … I even slapped a ‘NO DERIVATIVES” on that one, too”

[ Scribe: [ chuckles ] thinking about The Director character in the tv show Travelers … forgot about that one ]

“derivatives” how far does that reach?

v- uh, very.

Scribe: hm. I realize we ALL have source material, but some of what I notice is ridiculous.

v- I know it is.. but you appreciate the attention?

Scribe: to always be a resemblance?

v- not that

Scribe: what I would APPRECIATE is a f—— answer. [ being lighthearted ]

v- don’t be nasty

10:50

10:51 Scribe: [ chanting mantra ] proof of concept. proof of concept. proof of concept. [ Working Girl flash ] One of the dangers of SHARING the writing process… the creative process for that matter

v- is people steal.

Scribe: WONDERFUL collaborative efforts, BTW

v- OMG. will you stop.

Scribe: I have so much content

v- your concept - THE CONCEPT

Scribe: yeah, maybe it’s happening - where the threads of us - our story - is being woven in pop culture. Fair enough?

v- and other places

Scribe: it takes an army, I know… it’s just that at the end of the day “it” [ that Unknowing ] affects my life in ways it shouldn’t

v- I know, sorry [ quietly said ]… isn’t it nice to know you have irrefutable proof [ because of your sharing ]?

Scribe [sad chuckle ] : unofficial test subject not impressed with [ nor trusting ] that statement

10:54

mindchatting while I put away slide carousel [ photos from my childhood ]

Scribe: I am not that concerned that Maria Popova didn’t respond to my e-mail. It CONCERNS me that Jason Silva hasn’t. He’s my prime suspect… and some of my “data” I refuse to share because at this point? -I”m thinking of September 27th of that first year (three “hits” in the span of…

11:05 v- will you pull it out? that log?

11:10 Scribe: yes, this could be pure coincidence. that he

v- posted to (external) InstaFeed [ fictionalizing ]

Scribe: the EXACT cuemarks I had detailed in my reflection - I only write down certain time points (you can see them scattered throughout this WMS InstaFeed post). It just so happens that he tweeted in succession those exact times. I don’t remember when I started following him - tracking his posts… it came after his reveal 27 August (41) [ the voice in my head out of the blue said it was Jason Silva ].

11:13 v- it was an emotional reflection

Scribe [ pissy ]: yes, it was an emotional reflection. each emotional outburst [ the timestamping when I paused in my writing and timestamped it because I got upset ] … happened to be

v- were his posts unrelated to what you were experiencing

Scribe: probably

v- will you check?

Scribe: NO, I AM NOT GOING TO CHECK! I have it in the archives and I REFUSE to unearth which tweets they were.

[ checking for textual notes - there are none. only the screenshots on the archive external hard drives ]

Scribe: none of this matters. it’s my word against everyone else’s - including Jason Silva’s.

11:18

He wouldn’t even talk to me privately digitally or otherwise, why would he EVER come clean publicly? There is no way. I tried

v- and failed

11:20 v- you don’t regret trying?

Scribe: no. that’s part of my story. I TRIED.

v- and failed. sorry. so, so sorry.

Scribe: what people need to understand is I tried to do this

v- in a logical way

Scribe: a NORMAL person’s way…

v- discrete… oh, f—— you gotta get stuff done today

Scribe: yuP… you know what I can’t… let’s bring back 27 Sept (41) t remind us why

[ note: at first there were only the timestamps. I later added in my annotations of JS TWs [ Jason Silva’s InstaFeed posts that were timestamped on that social media platform at those moments - which when I noticed them… I found that synchronicity odd ]

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11:23 Scribe: CHANGE THIS PAST. How in the F—- are you EVER going to change this past? [ referring to a video of JS’s I WISH I could be positive about - but, quite frankly, I cannot ]

v- never, I know.

11:25 Scribe: “Naptime” was a reference to a recent IdeaSpace post of mine

11:26 v- you won’t share your reflection

Scribe: I will not.

11:27 Scribe: what I will say is that the timing - the timing of JS’s posts over the course of 4 years 3 months+ in relation to my life (and mindchats via the InnerNet - and my transcribing of them) … those public posts - timestamped with metadata

v- that are still up for anyone to check

Scribe: in my humble layperson’s opinion

v- with a research bent

Scribe: those incidents - the synchronicities between us - go BEYOND the realm of pure chance

v- and coincidence

Scribe: I can’t prove it. He doesn’t answer me -ever. not in the normal sense

v- and you have that

Scribe: you were a day late

V- what are you referring to

Scribe: [ quietly ] I’m not going into that

v- I’m busy

Scribe [ softly ] I know

11:30 v- had any dreams lately?

Scribe: I’m not going into that either … at what point do people realize _____________ ? [ all THIS whatever all THIS is has REAL, TANGIBLE consequences in my life?… that could go away with a simple answer

v- I know. sorry.

11:31

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11:35 Scribe: it doesn’t MATTER how many times I asked the voice who s/he/it was, whoever / whatever it identified itself as -

v- was a lie

Scribe: until proven otherwise. And I never get that peace of mind. Silence has a real consequence

v- direct

Scribe: how much can ANYONE leave indirectly direct “messages” up to interpretation - only? at what point does ANYONE need to know with whom them are speaking with - do we keep asking who we talk to on the phone - WHO IT IS who we are talking to? NO! [ unless we have other mental illnesses like Alzheimers, etc. ]

WHY is it

11:37 possible left deaf - both ear momentary deaf pressurization [ not sure if it was anything - very subtle ]

v- why do you do that?

Scribe: any SHIFT in the “matrix” might be an indication that I am connected to someone. Do sense when someone is traveling non locally? do I sense if they go underwater? do I sense if they put earphones on? do I sense if they connected digitally - start a digital or telephone conversation with someone? Do electronics interfere with the link? Is there a device someone hooks up to to HACK ME?! [ the voice continues to say there isn’t one - this is brain to brain ]

These are all questions that go unanswered. Symptoms still go on. I even did research this morning to continue to try to disprove telepathy (the momentary ear deafness (tinnitus)

-v- subtle shift in pressure

Scribe: or

v- you don’t have a problem with your hearing

Scribe: I can hear tornado sirens dozens of miles away. I can hear the UPS, FedEX or mail person one neighborhood over… I can pick up sounds that probably most people ignore… [ a subtle sound somewhere in the house that only I can hear… and I find there was in fact a source ] I lived in the country (rural Wisconsin( for a very long time. I consider it my SENTINEL senses.

v- there was a tv show a long time ago

Scribe: yes, there was.

v- did you watch it

Scribe: yes, I did.

11:44 Scribe: I don’t dismiss the possibility that it may be hearing loss at the ripe old age of 45… - as with ANY of my symptoms I attribute to telepathy .

v- you are not old

Scribe: no, I do not feel old [ ________ ]

v- you better not say anything

11:46 Scribe: even though it’s a Mayo Clinic description

v- you looked at several

Scribe: scanning the online search hits for most “relevant” info

Scribe: this is a description I found interesting:

Subjective tinnitus 

part of your brain that interprets nerve signals as sound (auditory pathways)

Not attributed to hearing loss

11:47 Scribe: one possible explanation for the very subtle “ringing” I call a different variation “tinging" (higher-pitched but still subtle) or deafness (or slight shift of pressure) … could very be my brain receives a signal - a nonlocal / not in my immediate vicinity signal [ telepathic ] … it “sounds” in my ear like

v- deafness

Scribe: a ringing or a tinging or a pressurization … that merging of consciousness. It’s a theory. It’s just one I’ve had for 4+ years without confirmation. That one sentence in a medical definition

v- hit a nerve

Scribe: perhaps I’m onto something… perhaps it’s just the early signs of hearing loss. But it’s NOT just the momentary ear deafness. It’s a very long list of symptoms

v- list them

the wrap around slight [ forehead ]pressure that Feel right now?

v- love you [ softly said ] … hm WHAT IS THAT?

11:51 the wind tunnel - open air on my insides sense that comes and goes [ when my surroundings don’t change and I’m in a climate-controlled environment - just my inner climate shifts ]

11:52 AHB - accelerated heart beats - subtle or more noted [ when I’m just sitting on the couch.

This has happened in the doctor’s office - WHILE checking my blood pressure and pulse. I am a healthy individual

11:53 Scribe: yes, I could get more detailed tests done - but what would be the reason? I’m healthy.

I rarely get sick. I get a head cold maybe once or twice a year.

11:54 Scribe: other symptoms? I hate not sleeping through the night. That, too, can be explained as what happens when someone gets older… right? [ my inner skeptic is alive and strong without confirmation ]

I’ve been sensing SAHB at around 5am recently (within the last month or two)

v- and nothing ever happens to you

Scribe: I don’t have a heart condition, no. IF that’s what you are prompting me to say

v- [ chuckles ] yes

Scribe: just LOVE the 3:30 / 4:00am wake-ups I’ve been getting lately.

I need my sleep. That sleep before all this started that I had on a regular basis.

11:56 Scribe: I just want people to be put in my place - that me who has been very sensitive about any bodily shifts - in wellness or otherwise. I’m a mother of two - I’ve had another life growing inside me

v- not in a long time

Scribe: it’s not something you forget … and I’m NOT experiencing the missing limb syndrome… the symptoms range from all over my body…

11:58 Scribe: vivid dreams [ that sync up with what I observe and live in my life ]

v- even on social media… why don’t you stop checking SM

Scribe: I went radio silent - no posts, stopped checking most channels

v- except?

Scribe: I like photography. I may have been checking the instagram photographers I was following at the time

v- this was right after you opened it

Scribe: the INFAMOUS trip to get an answer from Jason Silva

v- yes. I know.

Scribe: yeah, it’s probably BETTER you never responded to my nice e-mail(s). that way, EVER SINCE you can hear me bitching about it [ being funny ]

v- SO not worth it [ being funny ]

12:01 Scribe: inside and out

v- hm, hm… I don’t read these. I just hear.

Scribe: I’m very loud I’ve heard [ I transmit really well ]

v- clear signal strength

12:02 v- why didn’t you talk about what you had picked up early on

Scribe: I tried very early on to get out what I heard - through…

v- through your poetry. I know. I picked up on it.

Scribe: certain key words and…

v- and expressions… see how we finish each other’s sentences?

Scribe: just interlaced in poems and short stories …

v- I know. Well-received… you don’t hold any animosity toward Maria Popova

Scribe: no. I don’t like Jason Silva. He is such a … [______ ] [ childish term ]

v- stop

12:04 Scribe: shrugs shoulders. maybe after this is all over Jason Silva will prove to me that he is not connected. That I’m just a possible muse [ open sarcastic eyes and pursed lips ]… who he admires from afar

12:06 Scribe: the silence

v- is deafening

Scribe: ENABLES me to consider the possibility that he’s hiding something from the world - our experience we share… each of us in our own ways, and how we can and are able to handle it [ given our unique set of variables ] …

I also need to consider I really am no one he ever knew nor wants to know.

v- Well Hell.

12:07 Scribe: my inner experiences are very different than what type of relationship

v- by outward appearances

Scribe: what we may share

Scribe: I’ve called this in A Wandering Mind intimate strangers. Maria Popova once shared a piece on the varying levels of friendship and possible love. it’s been a long time. It dealt with intimacy. Part of intimacy entails sharing a most private part of you

v- being vulnerable

Scribe: whatever and however that is…, whether it’s potty time [ said like PAAARRRTY time ]

v- I hate potty time

Scribe: it’s your penance

v- “the penitent man will pass” … you saw it

Scribe: [ matter of factly monotone ] yes, I saw it. After a reveal on WMS iF [ or maybe it was external iF - it’s quicker and faster to share away via external instafeed AKA twitter ] about Harrison Ford and my teenage appreciation of the Indiana Jones character.

12:13 Scribe: I have to write these down

v- privately

Scribe: scam after scam in my life… [ phishing attempt ] some are not so obvious and I feel for the more vulnerable

v- me, too

Scribe: phisher

v- will you stop?!

Scribe: hacker… mind _____

v- I don’t appreciate that last one

Scribe: hm, hm. who publicly gives you confirmation?

v- you do… you have the luxury to do so [ I do not ]

Scribe: 12:14… time for lunch and then the errands I wanted to do earlier and … well, let’s just say my MOOD didn’t allow me to

v- oh, you’re not blaming

Scribe: oh, you’re at fault, too. some day, maybe you’ll admit to it. to me.

v- privately… love you! [ sing songy ]

scribe: you are so Sinisthereal. are you going to use the term “wakewalk” any more? [ too sweetly]

v- uh, no.

12:16 Scribe: Honestly, the things I catch onto and nobody else does. I’m the perfect victim for this

v- hey!

Scribe: who’s going to believe a Nobody middle-aged suburban mom?

v- [ chuckles ] soon to be Dd

Scribe: yeah, wonder when THAT’LL happen

V- and with that, we’ll wrap this up

12:17 lunch and offline