16 Sept (45)

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10:15 Scribe: if people enter Wandering Mind Space to read this InstaFeed, it is under the licensing (that appears on all my websites). *If* it turns out in the future I see ANY resemblances to this or any other content that appears on WMS 

V- your terms  

Scribe: I will whip out the licensing terms  ...

v- when you have resources

Scribe: I bet Cable Green would be on my side

v- I bet he would

Scribe: I don’t ASSUME any type of relationship, professional or otherwise, with Cable Green. I was in attendance for one of his keynotes (EdTech conference) ... HOWEVER, all you cyberstalkers

v- beware

Scribe: when past is present ...

The future arrived? 

-Scribe

10:33 Scribe: it takes A LOT for an individual like me

v- to come out of the woodwork

10:34 Scribe: I may not be able to do anything about the licensing infringements that have been going on -granted, my opinion- based on my data & observations, right now... but here is the PAST SCRIBE giving a piece of advice 

this PAST SCRIBE may come back to haunt ANYONE who has used what I post for commercial purposes (this is a non-profit, “public service”  “educational” virtual space)

WHEN THE PAST IS PRESENT...

when this PAST SCRIBE forecasts... 

v- pay attention

Scribe: anyone who claims to predict the future is considered ... (at least initially) to be

v- a bullshitter

Scribe: I read my logs from four years ago. You know what I find on the pages? 

10:38 I DID NOT TRUST whatever out-of-the-ordinary experience that was happening to me.  

that said, 

Back then, I was more accepting. 

I was more positive, weighing all the benefits of new technologies (of the future), putting forth every effort to document whatever concept, whatever consideration needed to be noted for these technologies of the future

10:41 part of that, was what I was doing

LOGGING what I observed

LOGGING what I experienced that couldn't be easily explained

LOGGING many aspects of my life many people wouldn’t even attempt to track

ALL FOR A CAUSE

V- that was a Nothing

10:42 Scribe: so, when a voice four years ago whispers hopes into my ear? - what, four years later, HAVE TURNED OUT TO BE FALSE?... even, then, you know how I reacted? 

Here’s an excerpt from a statement the Voice uttered regarding something I will not reveal... my response is important. It demonstrates my anchoring - that anchoring in a VERY IMPORTANT reality - one with TANGIBLE 

V- irrefutable  

Scribe: EVIDENCE

Image: excerpt from log 16 Sept (41) 15:39ish  [ Back then, I held so much hope it wasn’t a lie ... now, four years later? What would any normal person believe? ... it was a lie then. It still is a lie - no one to tell me it wasn’t/isn’t. I’ve experienced so many lies to date. I still have no answer, I am still experiencing things that I shouldn’t. It doesn’t go away no matter what I do, I record(ed) what I hear(d). What I sense(d). It’s my experience. Who knows WHAT it was/is. I just DO ... I record far less than I used to. What’s the point? I write next to nothing creatively BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO WASTE MY TIME - not because I wouldn’t want to. I have so much I’d LOVE to create... but art? IT DOESN’T PAY - comment added 11:52 later after I log out: nor does science or any other that my WORK contributed towards - and this WORKING FOR FREE? had real consequences in my life; it took away my TIME and efforts to a greater good that turned out to be a NOTHING, at least for me [ not even an answer ] - thought 16sept45 added textually 08:27 17sept45]

Image: excerpt from log 16 Sept (41) 15:39ish

[ Back then, I held so much hope it wasn’t a lie ... now, four years later? What would any normal person believe? ... it was a lie then. It still is a lie - no one to tell me it wasn’t/isn’t. I’ve experienced so many lies to date. I still have no answer, I am still experiencing things that I shouldn’t. It doesn’t go away no matter what I do, I record(ed) what I hear(d). What I sense(d). It’s my experience. Who knows WHAT it was/is. I just DO ... I record far less than I used to. What’s the point? I write next to nothing creatively BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO WASTE MY TIME - not because I wouldn’t want to. I have so much I’d LOVE to create... but art? IT DOESN’T PAY - comment added 11:52 later after I log out: nor does science or any other that my WORK contributed towards - and this WORKING FOR FREE? had real consequences in my life; it took away my TIME and efforts to a greater good that turned out to be a NOTHING, at least for me [ not even an answer ] - thought 16sept45 added textually 08:27 17sept45]

my log was started 01 June (41). This excerpt is from 16 Sept (41) - 3.5 months into the InnerNet experience. After September 16th (the longest entry to date), I had to start recording in a larger format journal. What has started out as just sensations turned into a brief utterance in hypnagogic states, to fragmentary utterances while awake, to eventually very long in-depth conversations

1st YEAR (text Scribal handwritten notes- highlights) LOGS (YEAR 41)

Volume 1: June01-July27(partial) (56.5 Days) back and front paging. 238 pages [added page count 17sept45]

Volume 1.5 (vacation journal) June 13 - June 18; June 20 [ 7 days ] (21 pages back and front) [added 08:33 17 sept 45 ]

Volume 2 : 192 pages July27(partial)-August22 (26.5 Days) back and front paging. 

Volume 3: 179 pages August23-September01 (10 Days). I start page 86 as a back-sided blank page of this volume. Pages 181-192 left blank for INDEX (written on page 181). Written log entries from page 87 on were only written on odd-numbered front-facing pages. I had started to need extra space for contextualization, added details... and what would later include my revisits to the log and STRANGER YET synchronicities - where past and present were syncing ... or after a past dream made more sense because of something that had happened since it’s reporting.

VOLUME 4: Sept02-Sept06 (5 Days). Text log on odd numbered pages thru page 193. Page 1 dedicated to an intro (also page 2 is blank for an intro/index).

VOLUME 5: Sept07-Sept10 (3 Days) text log thru page 194. Page 1 dedicated to an intro (also page 2 is blank for an intro/index).

VOLUME 6: Sept11-13 (3 Days). Text log thru page 163. Page 1 dedicated to an intro (also page 2 is blank for an intro/index). Pp164-182 left blank. 183-192 left blank for Index. first penciling in on p183 “INDEX”

VOLUME 7: Sept14-16 (3 Days). Text log on odd numbered pages 1-189. First two pages left blank (unpaginated) titled BLANK (I had thought I needed the space eventually...) 

11:02 v- for an index

Scribe: I had been categorizing the types of experiences. Making abbreviations for recurring ones. 

Sept 16 (41) took up nearly half of my mini journal book. 

VOLUME 8 (larger keyhole book) Sept17-Sept27 (10.5 Days) 3 pages (total of 6 back and front titled TOC INTRO) 1 paged titled BLANK (back and front total of 2 pages). Text log on odd-numbered pages. TOC & BLANK unpaginated. Text log on odd-numbered pages 1-239. 

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11:27 Scribe: I stopped midway thru Sept27. I had been creating a calligraphic copy of my handwritten notes (from a legal lined tablet). I have the hard copies : some log notes were typed. After “Seamripper” Sept 12th, I did a mass digital copy purge of my logs, after printing a hard copy. 

September 27th is memorable for me... 

11:34 v- how far did you get in you calligraphic copy? 

scribe: I hesitate  

v- because you think you’ll see a synchronicity. I know. 

Scribe: [ reading / scanning 27sept(41) ... that was a GOMH day [ get out of my head ]

Scribe: there are many days I need to be alone. Not hear a voice. Not sense. That was one of them. That is a luxury I never have anymore.

v- quiet solitude

Scribe: there is always a voice or a sensation to remind me

v- you’re not alone

Scribe: and sometimes that’s not a good thing  

v- I know. 

Scribe: so, for me? Fiction gets it wrong. I can’t shut this off. 

v- OMG I know.  

Scribe: to those who use technologically mediated telepathy in the future? BE THANKFUL FOR BLOCKERS, FILTERS, THE ABILITY TO SHUT IT OFF. 

11:40 my last calligraphically written words on page 239 at 11:48 were:

”and the music ended” 

11:41 Sept 16 (45) 

11:53 Volume 8 is paginated thru page 374. Index pages are 375&6. 

11:53 Scribe: back to what I should be doing in my life. 

11:54