11:36 Scribe: I've been searching for an image for more than a few minutes. This one seemed appropriate. Numerologically odd, also.
BACKTRACK to 13 June (41) 20:55
We saw the honey moon rise while at the restaurant. Bright, champagne-colored moon.
BACK TO PRESENT
11:40 Scribe: You won't get much from my travel journal during that time... during my family island vacation. Most beautiful place I've been to. I shared a series of glimpses of that trip on IdeaSpace "Where in the world..." not revealing where I was - giving hints... not obvious ones until the end of my trip. The series was part of my way to let others travel with me - a window into that place. Another was to engage IdeaSpace community members.
11:44 Scribe: As I add archived IdeaSpace posts here to WanderingMindSpace (WMS) I realize the importance of reflecting on why I am no longer associated with the social media platform. Why I requested to removed.
Scribe: I once wrote a post after my NYC visit and participation in IdeaFest ...
Do not forget the people.
11:48 Scribe: this is my reminder to whoever is listening or reading: do not forget the people.
11:49 Scribe: Without what is happening to me - what happened to me BECAUSE I joined IdeaSpace... I would most likely still be an active community member there.
11:55 Scribe: this reflection is brought on by watching Thor: Ragnarok and one of the themes was: it's not so much a place, but the people. My reaction is... it's not just the people, though. We all can agree that we are who we are because of where we are and who we are with... and whatever may be happening in our lives at that point, what has already happened ... and whatever we map out for our futures. space + time + observer
11:58 Scribe: our behaviors adjust due to numerous factors. For a while, I was pulling away from IdeaSpace. I stopped posting. I stopped checking. I started deleting ideas...
I ws over two years into whatever was happening to me... and whoever I was connected to - BECAUSE OF A DIGITAL SHOULDER RUBBING ON IDEASPACE - still was avoiding me.
12:00 Relationship experts will dissect this for a long time.
12:01 Scribe: I'm a language educator ... how do you know how to speak, read, write... understand a language? Sometimes, we can't explain why we use one word and not another. Perhaps, with this InnerNet connection I am trying to figure out why in the world someone wouldn't just come forward and tell me who they are to me and who I am to them. Relationship basics.
12:02 Scribe: without knowing if there even *is* a relatinoshiop ... well, that brings with it a lot of issues.
12:03 Scribe: ... all thanks to a social media network that SHOULD foster meaningful connections - relationships.
12:05 Scribe: After experiencing the InnerNet for months, an opportunity arose - IdeaFest - to meet IdeaSpace members in physical space.
Scribe: I met Healer and Arrow at IdeaFest. Trickster was in Europe. DJ even farther away. Not sure where Hunter was - maybe NYC. She doesn't tend to geotag herself. I can relate.
I was watching Healer and Arrow like a hawk - maybe not staring at them, but I was paying close attention. I was reading them. You get a different sense for someone in physical space. I interacted with each on IdeaSpace, but this mingling improved my read. I won't share all my interpretations, but I will highlight just this one. I had a conversation with Arrow and we were talking about how IdeaSpace was going to move from beta (invitation-only, smaller community) to public (anyone could join). To that I responded:
An awkward laugh followed.
12:12 Scribe: what I mainly meant by this - given my connection to the InnerNet because of IdeaSpace- was:
I was mindbody hacked because of IdeaSpace by who knows who. How much more exposed and vulnerable would I be after a public release?
By the end of October (41) I had a handful of suspects - and a voice or voices had identified themselves - two names were Healer and Arrow. Healer was a much stronger presence than Arrow.
01 November (41) the first installment of A Wandering Mind was published.
12:16 Scribe: I was promised a meet in physical space to talk about the InnerNet. I won't go into what I heard. Some day whoever you are..
Scribe: you have to confront me.
Scribe: I had already started to weave my InnerNet experiences into creative endeavors - poetry, short stories, photography, videography ... then, came the manuscript in the making A Wandering Mind.
It took me nearly two years later to outright ask the question - to the voice's "no, no, no don't do this"...
12:19 Scribe: I got a response from Healer. Not connected. That's what he said. Among other things... which we will talk about in the future.
Scribe: Trickster decided to stay silent - directly.
12:20 Scribe: each of my suspects: Hunter, DJ, Arrow, Healer and Trickster all have a part to play in A Wandering Mind. They have to - from my perspective. Who knows what it was I heard and experienced - why I heard and sensed the things I did. ... I love the thematic wayward bouncing ball, BTW
v- oh, do you?
12:21 Scribe: funny. it keeps hitting people in the head or breaking things.
v- cite it...
------- [ searching for the wayward ball reference... ]
12:51 Scribe: trust your instincts. I had a feeling it was in this installment. Seriously, key word searches sometimes SUCK.
"It’s good to have an inner skeptic in you to question what your dreamer self wants to believe. The dreamer in me on many occasions wanted to see an unbelieving skeptic’s face the moment when something like what I experienced out of the blue happen to him or her. When that wayward ball kept smacking that person in the head." - "Interference"
Scribe: the wayward ball reference first came out in "Organized Chaos"
IDEASPACE POST 29 June (41)
Organized chaos - the ability to navigate through disordered thoughts & matter to find alignment; knowing the right direction to get back on course despite missing or misleading signs.
What to others may seem like a mess is really inspiration's playground. Ideas bouncing everywhere. You get distracted by their interference. You're working - all focused on a task - and one hits you like a wayward ball.
Make a note. Throw the ball back for now.
I look at photos of creative figures' work spaces & feel a little better about the clutter my home office desk endures at times. When it reaches the point of organized chaos there should be a neon light that clicks on saying "Work in progress" or "Life got in the way." I know others have experienced this: you need that thing (or idea). Where was it? ... And you know just where to look if you take a moment...or two. Organized chaos.
which I will give credit where credit is due: this saying "organized chaos" came from my mother-in-law
V- the writer
Scribe: hm, hm
V- who you respect
Scribe: of course
12:58 v- haha, you should mention it
Scribe: oh, I had some trolls on external InstaFeed when IdeaSpace pushed this idea out
V- haha OMG ...
Scribe: there is a whole inner monologue - a rendition of what I would say to this couple of fine individuals
V- haha, stop
12:59 Scribe: little did they know they were trawled
V- you show them, C!
Scribe: [ cyberstalked - I did my homework on them ]
Scribe: it's AMAZING what you can tell about a person by what they post and share.
v- haha stop
13:00 V- you do this ALL the time
Scribe: do not forget the people... in some ways, you are not forgotten... and that is not a good ting
v- no, it's not... now, back to your reflection
13:01 [ LOL ] I once said that remember anything you put on the (public) digital plane is public record
v- as is this
Scribe: yes. people really need to be aware I do my homework
V- yes, dear ... now, get back to what you were saying about IdeaSpace
[ flipping through pages... it's somewhere in my journal ]
13:04 Scribe: it's important for me to do my homework. we need to be careful about what we claim resembles our own work. ... I'm thinking of a recent digital check on someone who claimed Trickster steals ideas
v- thank you...
Scribe: seriously, it is a bit freaky... dragonfly and a rainbow/spectrum...
Scribe: I'm not going to give identifying details. I oftentimes read comments first before I watch videos.
v- thank you ...
Scribe: more oftentimes than not the comments have very little to do with what you say... sometimes I wonder if they even watch them [ just read the headline ]
v- haha stop... thank you, BTW
Scribe: I don't know (quiet) I am defensive of my peeps
13:07 Scribe: it's good fro me as well to ...
v- stay balanced
Scribe: anchor myself... if someone else sees themselves in your work... I may be in the same boat - I have nothing to prove it definitely
v- C... (chiding)
Scribe: it helps... me stay grounded. it also helps as a reminder of how careful this needs to be handled because others will come out of the woodwork
v- in bad ways
Scribe: assuming without doing their homework - all the grunt work...
v- day in and day out
Scribe: and even realizing the need for digital fasts to reset themselves
v- some get too involved
Scribe: yeah... IDK... ok, back to the topic at hand: IdeaSpace ...
v- I regret that (quietly said)
Scribe: any number of factors will cause a departure - mine just are unique in their own way. I am better off not being there
v- the space
Scribe: I don't know - with the InnerNet I am in desperate need of filters... I need to curate... I also wanted to see the steady stream of posts to get a feeling ... to note any... blips for my radar?
V- I know...
Scribe: going through my archive I see the comments people made to my posts and vice-versa...
v- it brings up good memories
Scribe: it brings up the point that I WAS NEVER ABLE TO FORM A WORKING GROUP... there needs to beg private spaces. You just don't start a conversation about the InnerNet or anything similar if ... it's just not a well-received or accepted topic...
v- except for those who are also interested
Scribe: dreams also... I will post this quote because it rings true ... unknown author, but true: