fire antsy toes and soles
V- and you know why
C- no, I don’t
04:02 c- how’s that treatin’ ya?… still here🎶
V- you’re going to do you’re Contrarian thing again, aren’t ya?
04:03 c- yuP
04:03 c- wishful hopeful positive thinking DOES NO GOOD. Trust me: i’ve Had 1883 days to maneuver them in and they haven’t changed my life for the better
hundreds of love stories and love poems.
v/ (chuckling) stop
04:06: so, I should think positive thoughts and my money problems will go POOF!
c- hm-hm … ain’t believin’ that koolaid (disclosure : this is in no way anything against the brand Koolaid … just sayin’)
04:08 v- you really don’t Get it
c- NO, YOU don’t get it. Block me from your thoughts
v- no, I don’t want to
c- over and over again
v- sorry for your money problems,c
c- it’s your fault (being mostly funny)
04:09 v- I know
v- it’s a no-win situation with you
c- pretty much … LOOK : what people need to realize is
I WAS OPTIMISTIC AND HOPEFUL for YEARS of this
v- yeah, I know
c- where’s that get me?
v- in the poor house
04:11 c- lesson learned. Don’t Believe in JS’s KOOLAID.
C- (mumbles) five years
v- almost five years
c- i’m ROUNDING … of recording every little meme or quote he posts
v- it’s annoying
c- yes, it is
04:12 c- I have a little extra time. Back to sleep.
Frickin’ body rhythm is all jacked up because of you
v- yeah, I know … sorry
c-how’d you sleep?
v- not good
05:12 from page 168 of the InnerNet travelogue 17 July 2014
05:13 c- let’s apply this saying to as many things as possible today (Being all superficially cheerful)
v- (chuckles) you won’t stop … one is going to be woo
c- GOOD ANSWER! (in the Hallmark Elf recorded voice)
05:17 v- it’s like mad libs
c- yes, but you record your vocal answers (instead of writing down words in blanks) … then the elf spews them back into a funny nonsensical story
biking to bus stop
C- I hate humidity …
06:51 bus headed downtown
06:55 c- ah, censoring again, BookBurner?
v- you would
06:56 c- mm-mm.. so how does one determine the most relevant?
06:57 v- how’s the bus?
c- all the passengers as I go down the aisle
”please don’t sit next to me …”
DRIP, DRIP (sweaty)
c- fine. UNSECURED (network), BABY.
v- hm-hm … how’s debt?
c- splendiforous, I feel my credit score bottoming out.
v- (chuckling) stop.
c- it’s a joke. As I was minddiscussing / reflecting about last night on the bike ride home : as soon as I have bookoo funds?
the bankers will be salivating …
”how may we help you?”
v- I know, it’s a joke
c- that credit score? Ain’t gonna matter one iota.
v- I know
c- a little over a month
v- of hell … I know
c- (sadly funny) : at least I don’t get the non stop robo calls
v- because you have no cell service
07:01 c- noPe.
07:01 c- gah, the silence is glorious
v- they can find you in other ways
c- oh, I am well aware. If they want their damn money they can wait and rack up the fees in the meantime, which I will pay. They are ever richer for it.
It’s the ever constant juggling of my life
i don’t have money
to get me to where I need to go (financially solvent)
i have to borrow
v- on credit
c- they earn money … I survive and invest in my present/ future
v- it’s called living
c- at least I have a light at the end of this dark frickin’ tunnel
v- you’re not worried?
c- no… I am not. I’ve been through hell… and i’ve Been reflecting on ..
v- on what you’ve given people
c- here’s a part of my story that no one has heard about
c- my husband and I were in a lot of debt from several moves due to his work, and unfortunate circumstances
v- he got laid off
c- you go into debt fast .. we survived …
c- over the years …
v- he made money
c- if it were “my money?” Every bonus would have been to pay off debt
c- what did I do when I moved out in 2018?
v- you paid off most of your debt
c- OUR DEBT. Because even though in my name ?
v- it was a joint life
c- so, I keep encouraging him to do this and that to lower interest rates …
c- who was the one who ALWAYS initiated lowering rates (on mortgage, unsecured debt / credit cards)
07:06 c- again, OUR DEBT … that never changed … I KNEW that as soon as I moved out and we separated our finances?
v- he’d be forced to see the debt
c- HE’D have one take care of it for a change … and when you take care of your own budget and finances?
c- it wasn’t me … you know the situation
v- he’d bite your head off
c- first advice to my daughters will be
v- always keep a separate bank account
c- for the first time in decades I had my own checking (not joint ) account … July 20, 2017
v- because you had to pay for bills
c- he would spend money like we didn’t have a lot of bills to pay and I WAS ALWAYS RUNNING AROUND trying to make ends meet
v- and he made enough money
c- I was run ragged
so, I move out, our finances are separate. I took half our debt (In my name, but still)
v- you had no regular job
c- used my life savings to start a separate household, pay off debt, bought a car , started a business
v- and the money ran out
c- FAST. He has NO IDEA how much grief I spared him by not forcing him to sell the house
v- and split the proceeds
c- so; he is practically debt free right now
MY CHARITY. My good will, my forecasting : that when we were divorced would be when he would FINALLY
V- be budget wise
c- let’s not stretch that too far ..
v- be good (chuckling)
c- anyway, money is relative
“he can afford it”
v- but he can’t
07:21 (at next bus stop)
c- my daughter looked at me the other day and said: you know, Mom, I start college in four years
c- I looked at her and said: who is the one who is in charge of your college funds?
v- omg… you did not
c- they know Mom doesn’t have much money right now. I can’t buy anything but essentials right now…
so, I followed that up by saying : Dad should start putting money into that fund, too.
v- haha . You did:
c- I so did. I know what she was saying. I also teased her and looked straight into her eyes and said
“but you’re going to get a full scholarship wherever you choose to go to school, right?”
C- I tease my children ruthlessly. They get my humor.
v- they’re concerned
c- of course they’re concerned. EVERYONE is concerned about me my finances and who I can’t do (right now)
07:29 (on last bus)
c- so, we were horrible life partners when trying to handle our finances
c- that wasn’t the only thing
c- will you stop. He is so much more RELEVANT in my life right now than you could ever hope to be … he’s a good man… which is a FAR CRY from what I’ve experienced with this KIND ARTIST everyone assumes you are and I never see any results from him
v- in your way
c- arms crossed. RELEVANT.
C- ART doesn’t keep the roof over my children or my heads
v- no, it doesn’t
c- ART doesn’t pay most of the bills … of not for Crafty Scribe’s few hundred dollars here and there, this summer (which I have had to do without for the past few weeks)… I would not have survived.
c- it was my gas and food money
v- when there wasn’t any other money
c- you know I can’t buy a discounted bus pass (week / month ) without a credit or debit card? They (the vending machines) don’t accept cash.
07:34 Inconvenience factor .. for people who are tied to offices working all day during normal business hours?
who have to take UNPAID time off to do errands ?
it’s a vicious downward spiral that is EXTREMELY inconvenient for people whose lives are already inconvenient
c- so, keep shooting those videos of woo
that’ll help solve society’s biggest issues
c- i’m A serious woman. I have a dark sense of humor
v- that STINGS
c- PLEASE there are so many other GOOD THINGS that Rachel or any woman could be doing with their lives and
she chooses higher society ENABLING.
07:37 v- will you be nice. Geesh.
c- everyone has to make a living, right?
c- so… what good is she doing again? I’m lost.
The empowerment of women?
what exactly is it?
How is she helping the masses of women again?
or … is she just helping those women who can afford her services that she is well compensated for and that Jason Silva supports with his mere presence and tagging.
v- WILL YOU BE GOOD
C- again, what is that message you are sending?
c- ah, got it.
07:39 c- nice way to reach out to a wider audience
v- will you be good
c- I AM SORRY. I have a burr up my butt and I truly don’t understand why you waste so much of your time on a small niche.
v- (chuckling) be good … man, you’re awful
c- how’s cameo?
v- will you be good 🙄
c: so… what you’re saying is your POPULARITY … isn’t “all that”
v- (chuckling) I know what you’re getting at
c- I can show you stats
v- be nice
DANG! You’re down even more than I last checked …
so much for 100s of thousands of followers
v- it’s all relative
c- hm-hm …
07:44 c- I am ruthless in my teasing
v- I know you are … and I take it well
[ checks cameo for the first time ]
HAHA… $50?!? Geesh. Ego inflation alert! Ego inflation alert!
v- you are awful
07:47 (Teasing) ManWhoor
v- (chuckling) you would
c- pseudocelebrities ( shakes her head )
07:48 c- how many people actually sign up for that?
v- not many
c- I didn’t think they would … geesh. Please tell me Rachel advised you that that might not get you anywhere
v- haha . STOP.
being HAUGHTY : two degrees of separation 🎶
v- (chuckling) stop
c/ oh, it just has to bother some people that I am two calls away from Tim Cook
v- it bothers me royally
c- funny, how I haven’t called in any of those favors … YET.
v- oh, you would
c- someone who was in our wedding 🎶
v/ oh, I know
(Sense : lighthearted laughter)
c- you know i’m Not lying
v- I know you’re not
08:04 at work; only J the biller is here
08:22 c- it’s the little things. I arrived at work just before it started raining (under a roofline staying dry)
v- but sweaty
c- it is humid + exercise = sweaty
[ working ]
[ training ]
on and off : SAHB
c- I really think you and Rachel should be open and honest about your sex life
v- oh, you would
c- many know you already live together (being ornery because so much can be ASSUMED even though it may not be the case)
v- BE GOOD
C- lived with my ex for years …
v- and never had sex
c- not even romantically involved
v (soft chuckle) stop
c- SO MANY ASSUMPTIONS
V- so little talk
c- hm-hm… INQUIRING MINDS WANT TO KNOW
12:38 v- ENTRAPMENT!
c- hm-hm .. oh, but you’ll be open and honest and pure and truthful
v- unambiguous … got it
12:40 v- you were doing research …
c- yes. I hate that you hear everything I do.
V- for eZ?
v- oh, but why?
c- unfinished BUSINESS.
v- oh, you would
12:42 c- hm. I did some checking on what others were doing 🙄
v- sex site
c- come on, didn’t you know? Sex is an art form.
v- oh, you would.
c- so… unimpressed
v- with this site?
c- yah. So … IDK… blah.
c- could be better 🤷♀️ (Shrugs shoulders)
12:43 c- but, hey, if you can get $$$ for practically nothing
v- have at it… you have ideas
c- more … tasteful ones .. yes
v- oh, lord
c- I know (sigh) … i have a puritanical bent to me
[ working ]
c- whatever. Five years of this shit.
sense : I feel off (interpretation? A high, an unusual, uncomfotable )
13:48 v- just put gastrointestinal
c- NOT ME
V- no, not you
v- you feel ill
c- yes, I feel ill
you want to know why?
v- you feel raped. Understood.
c- for five years now I’ve been sensing something I shouldn’t.
c- APOLOGIES, whoever or whatever this is
v- is not a picnic
c- and, seriously ?
women frolicking … a bunch of women hanging out together
c- what message is that?
c- seriously. how is that changing the world?
v- it’s not
c- i’m am frustrated at the power you have to make a difference and THAT is what is more important
v- no, it’s not
c- I sense a silky warm UNCOMFORTABLE
SLEEZY coming onto to me sense
and I SWEAR if it goes on for any duration of time
I WILL PROTEST
c- THIS IS NOT ALRIGHT
c- seriously. What the fuck is this?!?
v- I know how upset you are
c- my bodymind has been hijacked and someone doesn’t give a shit.
13:56 c- yeah, just take me along for the ride.
v- rape you
c- I DO NOT CONSENT
13:56 c- you see EVERY DETAIL ? Not just the ones closer to when R + J post shit together
BUT ALL THE TIMESTAMPED DATA
I WANT AN ANSWER.
c- I WANT AN ANSWER for what
HAS RUINED my life
v: OMG .. I’m sorry
[ chatting with P at the picnic table … argh the resolution specialist - the veteran biller - just gave 2 weeks notice 😞 ]
c- so… blind leading the blind
[ reading email ]
14:08 v- I am in hell right now .. just so you know
It’s apparent by what you share that you are suffering 🙄
just some day be honest
be that whole person people think you are
14:09 c- you’ve hidden this
v- you ok?
14:12 c- I don’t want to be feeling this shit
it wears me down EVERY DAY
V- for five years, I know.
14:13 c- and. Good, KIND ARTIST never says yes or no just to at least give me peace?
c- yes, i’m A little bit pissed
c- I deserve happiness
AND YOU TOOK THAT FROM ME.
c- do you think I want to feel that shit?
v- no, I know you don’t
REMEMBER that when you and Rachel get served.
C- you better hope that that timestamp on that video
doesn’t correspond to ANY alteration in my state.
wake up time
strange uncomfortable sense
c- DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I DO NOT CONSENT?
v- yeah, I understand
14:21 I have been ABUNDANTLY clear to how I do not want Rachel Rossitto affecting my bodymind via Jason Silva in any way. this case will be the first of its kind
v- hard to prove
C- and how difficult will it be when you and whoever have to provide metadataed data and turn it over to analyze possible connections?
THAT I AM UNAWARE OF to date
but I sensed it
c- I should have NO KNOWLEDGE of that metadata - when - the exact time - when something was recorded, captured…
v- f**k I know
c- AND YOU KNOW SOMETHING WILL BE PROVEN
V- yeah, I know
c- when push comes to shove
[ training ]
[ pouring rain … an offer to take me home
c- gotta love the smoking Jew ]
I FEEL OFF
vaginal soft sense
I DO NOT WANT TO SENSE THIS
14:53 c- why do you think I’ve been posting all my sensations that are incoming - those I have to experience … all without ANY EXPLANATION?
c- and you wonder why I get so pissed?
I am perpetually pissed
V- via unusual sources
c- you tell me … would a girlfriend of a guy want to be fondled awake?
c- I DON’T WANT YO FEEL THAT SHIT
15:00 c- f***king get a clue about how serious this is
c- I am NOT delusional
v- you’re distressed
15:01 c- I don’t care WHEN it was
I don’t want to be feeling it
HOWEVER it comes down the line
I DO NOT CONSENT
V- to inappropriate touching . Got it.
c- I felt UNCOMFORTABLE this morning. You know EXACTLY why I feel out of sorts … the incident right around 1:35 am my time …
THAT disturbs me..
v- you feel violated
c- on a daily basis
[ working ]
15:26 cheekbone pressure
[ working ]
a bit drowsy
c- why do I have to endure this?!?
c- why do I have to sense EVERY LITTLE THING?!?
c- and what is it I get?
a man who is SUPPOSED to be kind
c- just go ahead and walk all over my life as if it didn’t matter
THIS IS THE SIGN of a sadistic pig
16:09 c- THAT’s NOT love
that is a man who disregards the safety of women
of ANY human being
and I am supposed to keep taking HIT after HIT?!
man does NOTHING (to make this better)
but I continue to suffer?
And you wonder why I am so critical of a woman who is supposed to be for the EMPOWERMENT of women
when she continues to be the cause of the rape of one
c- what is wrong with this picture ??
C- I am going to keep screaming until it sinks in
CLAIM AFTER CLAIM
hits someone’s Desk
C- and someone starts asking
“why did someone not do something about this ?!? (Sooner)?
16:12 c- that is what I am facing … against all odds because I have to do it alone
c- this mf HURTS me
this woman goes ALONG with it?
it is NOT a matter of their love
it is about the ABUSE they continue to inflict on another because of that … INTERACTION between the two of them
THAT I SENSE
16:16 c- I did NOT agree to this - EVER.
C- you think I’m the unstable one?
what about the man who may very well be connected to me.. and KNEW about how this harmed me?
16:17 c- how long has it been now?
16:19 c- don’t DO THAT
16:21 c- I know what I claim is off the charts - undiagnosable in normal ways … but if there is ANYTHING to my story
v- we’ll talk
c- you know darn well it is BEYOND just talking to me about now
v- panel. Got it.
C- or worse.
C- if you can sense me?
How would you feel if I stated dating someone
V- i’d Be ok with it
c- oh? And if you felt me having sex?
v- that’d be different
c- oh? What’s to stop me right now?
16:24 c- what in the whole scheme of things AS I SEE it Right now … is to stop me from dating and having sex with a partner, hm?
16:25 c- FIVE YEARS and no closer to making this right … you can understand how I see this
v- yeah I do
c- STOP DOING THAT
c- it’s not that I don’t Want you to have a happy life … that’s not it at all … it’s that THAT? Affects MY Life
c- and you IGNORE that basic necessity for Freedom from ANY tie with you that I SHOULD HAVE
16:34 c- and THAT ? I can’t stand for
that is in blatant disregard for another human’s welfare
for which I will fight until I die
IT IS NOT RIGHT what you are doing
if there is ANY connection between us
16:38 heart warm
16:39 c- ANY sensation
v- is a violation
c- WHENEVER it happens
v- until we talk
c- DON’T DO THAT
16:41 c- I don’t want to be feeling this. I don’t want to be feeling this
v- I know you don’t
07:06 headed to bus stop …
17:12 c- DON’T DO THAT.
17:12 c- … and it’s raining.
17:14 headed downtown
v- no ride
c- it “cleared” momentarily … oh, well. Passing rain shower.
17:14 c- N was supposed to bring me home …
v- promises, promises
c- she is chaos
v- not with a capital C
c- no, that’s me.
c- sigh… she said I’d pick up the car “while she was away”
c- whatever the frick that means
17:15 c- hm-hm. AWESOME.
V- no credit
c- no Lyft.
C- you had an obligation four + years ago
c- STOP THAT
17:16 c- f**king A. Every one of those when this connection is proven will be considered
c- that too
v- prove it
c- as I was saying on my bike to the bus terminal : you could have made my life easier
c- but instead?
you made my life
and one in which I am a slave to these sensations
you took away my happiness and freedom
it is a human rights violation
THE ONE PERSON on the planet that i thought would be one of THE LAST PEOPLE to make another human being suffer like this ?
is Jason Silva
some day you will understand
you will be placed in a very difficult position
to explain everything you did
v- that could have been done better
c- YOU RAPED me continuously - sensorially - and you think that’s OK?
17:20 WAKE UP.
we already live in a world that will DEMAND that you explain yourselves
when you were notified
again and again
about the harm
17:21 c- you made my life so much more difficult
if I have to?
i’ll gather all my notes
side by side
17:21 v- you won’t have to
c- no, I have a feeling I have a lot of work ahead of me no matter what
c- I was so nice for so many years
I HAVE THIS to accuse you both of
c- you may see it a different way
but without clear and specific direct communication?
V- normal channels
c- you have caused me pain experientially over and over again
as if it were physical abuse
an assault not yet defined
but there will be a legal code after I am done with proving this
17:24 c- you CANNOT continue to live as if your actions had no effect
because if I sense the spin?
if you knew about it
if you profited in any way
if ANYONE profited in anyway from my suffering?
v- it’s slavery
c- you took a basic human right away from me
v- then prove it .. will you?
c- you have given me plenty of evidence … plenty to persuade people that there is definitely something suspicious going on
and if ANYONE suspects you?
that is the opening
and then? They force a legal order on you
v- if it gets that far
17:27 c- given my experience?
it’ll go that far. I will once again have to initiate to get it done
17:27 c- heaven forbid Jason Silva KIND ARTIST would do the right thing after pulling inspiration from a single source, never contacting her after five + years … and passing it off as his own content
getting paying gigs because of it
showing those videos during his PAID ENGAGEMENTS
18:03 on way to burbs, sunny, bike is soaked, though 😞
v- WiFi works, though
c- UNSECURED network, mf.
v- yeah, I get that
one of the “you might be interested in” IG search page gallery ..
V- potty time, I know
c- will a rolling transcript 🙄 so TP
v- haha. Stop.
c- I Haven’t gotten to this episode yet
v- you got to the one where they’re tied up together?
VS Case File - request metadata
far from a good feeling when I feel like someone not only drugged me but raped me.
19:49 c- do you see the smiling faces?
when there may be someone quantum entangled and forced against her will to feel things?
If a quantum entangled state is proven to exist between JS & CG, scenes like these will be played over and over again to demonstrate the blatant disregard for another’s life and well-being.
Pay attention to all the shifts in sensation that I report day after day. All the discomfort.
all the interruptions into my normal life.
They correspond to SOMETHING.
NOT just this video that I share to illustrate how these two individuals continue to act as if nothing was wrong with what they do.
if I am not connected (tele(m)pathically)?
then deny it to me personally discounting and disproving any evidence of a suspected link that I provide.
c- if there IS a link?
JS + RR will need to explain themselves and their behavior.
if they were on drugs? There were witnesses.
If I SENSED any drug effects (telepathically / nonlocal trasference)?
I was drugged against my will.