02:32 c- I’ve been sensing something I don’t want to sense.
It is affecting my genital area.
these are incidents that go unexplained and that make my life miserable.
If they are EVER attributed to Jason Silva and he knows about this?
And Rachel Rossitto has had anything to do with them?
They may very well be implicated in the first ever virtual rape case of its kind.
I have advised them both about the negative effects of this …
If no one came forward about this connection & it has existed for years?
Those people who know about Jason Silva’s connection to me?
They are implicated.
Every single person who knows about this EXCEPT me? Can be dragged into a legal case that is opened to defend another’s human rights.
IT IS WRONG to leave someone for years in a state of Unknown and physical, emotional and mental trauma - when it could have been prevented by a simple means of direct communication.
c- I am forced to sense things I do not want to sense.
I never get any relief from these experiences that have had a negative effect on my life.
There is no one here to explain WHY I experience them.
If that person exists, they will need to explain not only to me now, but to legal and ethical teams why it took so long to contact me about all this.
I will not back down from this. This is too important now not just for me but anyone like me that may exist in the future who is faced with similar variables.
02:46 c: anyone who really knows me? Knows I follow through with what I’m committed to. THIS IS ONE CASE I WILL NOT BACK DOWN FROM.
02:47 c: why is it that I am the one who broke her silence first?
c- BECAUSE IT IS NOT RIGHT to be treated like this and I’m DONE with being the one who suffers through it all without anyone coming forward to talk to me privately to set the record straight.
02:49 It’s called SETTING A PRECEDENT when none exists.
02:50 it doesn’t matter if something is shared or not to prove what it was that I sensed at XY or Z day & time.
I SENSE THINGS 24/7 and it is in my log.
I DO NOT WANT TO SENSE THESE THINGS.
c: it won’t matter what type of relationship we have.
a case will be opened for the very fact that something like this?
SHOULD NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN to anyone else. .
i have suffered too much and too long to just LET IT BE.
I have to think of the future.
i have to consider my here and now that is constantly RUINED by some nonlocal source who considers his/her life more valuable than mine.
I have to take into consideration my past, which is littered with thousands of pages of log entries of all the sensations I never wanted, don’t want and will never want moving into my future.
02:57 c- for someone to disregard the precious time I gave up in my life? That I continue to give up for this & because of this?
v- is bullshit
03:01 c- if I am connected I HAVE A RIGHT to be a part of decision making that directly affects me and my life.
THE CHOICES Jason Silva - or whoever I am connected with? - those decisions that were made?
were without my consent.
for the case file. Sunrise & sunset times Kilauea Hawaii… to track unwanted movements & sensations sourced nonlocally
Note to public log : unwanted wake-ups and sensations were recorded with time zone stamps like this one since Jason Silva & Rachel Rossitto first started sharing about their stay in Hawaii. Even before, possibly, because I factor in asynchronous shares/posts… delays in sharing/posting after actual experiences.
06:37 c: when I sense things corresponds to daily routines - not mine … for example, for someone who might be just waking up in the morning in Hawaii … I sense a shift in sensation around my lunchtime. No other explanation exists yet.
06:40 c- when I sense something if a sexual nature? It gets recorded. No other explanation exists yet to explain away this PUSH into my mind body which I have termed VIOLATION.
Folder opened May 2, 2019 with this as its title: VIOLATION
JUNE 04, 2019
06:49 c- I don’t care WHAT this was … it woke me up and upset me
c- THIS IS AROUND SUNSET TIME
c- I DON’T CARE WHAT THIS US … IT FELT LIKE RAPE TO ME
C- I didn’t see this until late night June 4, 2019
c- BUT IT MATCHES HAWAII SUNSET TIME
RACHEL ROSSITTO IS CAUSING ME TO FEEL RAPED THROUGH JASON SILVA. PERIOD.
SHE IS DOING HARM. AS IS HE.
I SENSE IT BEFORE I OBSERVE IT ON SOCIAL MEDIA.
what do you think is worse?
v/ both is bad
c- I have NO CONTROL over
1) what I sense
2) the fact that Jason Silva CHOOSES to be with Rachel Rossitto
while I may sense EVERYTHING
c- it is a VERY different experience for me vs. her and his fans … watching “their journey” unfold
06:54 c- I am NOT blissed out… I was awakened out of a peaceful sleep by a sensation akin to someone RAPING me
what I sense DOES NOT MATTER (what caused these sensations)
it is MY experience that matters.
if there is a connection?
It is a mindbody rape every sensation I perceive without explanation or decent human contact to explain what it is.
it is far from POETRY what I experience
c- so, keep smiling, Rachel Rossitto & Jason Silva.
if EVER this connection proves to be legit
v- smiles wiped clean
c/ then FINALLY you both will treat me with the seriousness I deserve.
07:00 c- … with everyone on the planet who might EVER be put in a position similar to mine…. Such as this one
c- it’s not ME who needs to clean up her shit
it is the two of these on an ethical level. To begin with.
07:01 c- I tried to clean up this SHIT years ago
v- by being honest
07:06 c- so, now, I get up like every normal functioning wage earning adult to try to make money to pay for bills.
And deal with shitty reality that drags me down each and every single day
whw Jason Silva and Rachel Rossitto prance, sing and smile as if THIS has nothing to do with them.
c- if it is proved EVER that Jason Silva is connected to me: this is my testament. My testimonial. My witnessing of the events as they unfolded SIDE BY SIDE with theirs (their choices while they have consistently been notified by me: that these sensations are unwanted and not with my consent)… my experiences unrecognized … FOR NOW.
c- every day we have a choice of how to live our lives … and how our lives intersect with others?
On every level.
THAT is not the look of love to me.
13:31 [ lunchbreak ]
v- you’re going to have to talk about this
c- yeah, I know. I’ve been ready for 4+ years
c- I do NOT want to live the rest of my life with an unidentified / hacking VOICE and haunting presence in me for the rest of my life
v- without resolution
c- I WANT MY LIFE BACK
c- you know over the years I’ve read hundreds of comments by JS’s fans about : wouldn’t it be great to brain couple with JS… I have always said : it ain’t all that. It is far from a JOYOUS BLUSSFUL experience …
and under THESE circumstances? Five years in?
V- I am in hell; too, c
C- then DO something about it. Talk to me. Tell me who I am to you so I can decide if I want you in my life and vice versa so we can move on with our Ives
it seems you’ e Already done that and DRAGGED me along with you
v- kicking and screaming
c- I do NOT want to live a life of being awakened several times a night by who knows what.
It has been five years of HELL just with sleep disturbances alone
c- I think at this point I deserve peacs
v- of mind, I know … wat your lunch
13:38 c- I keep saying over and over again, which doean’t Seem to sink in:
i would not care about R + J if I didn’t sense so much and hear so much from my prime suspect: JASON SILVA.
c- who would want to spend a life having to sense THEIR LIFE TOGETHER?
that is NOT MY LIFE
and it makes me nauseous to think they don’t give a fuck on a regular basis.
my life be damned
13:40 c- again, I wouldn’t care normally. BUT IT AFFECTS ME. I SENSE WHATEVER ON A 24/7 basis …
13:41 [ back to work ]
[ JS post just as I get back in office to restart work ]
19:17 c- what a load of woo 💩
NOTE TO WOOLANDIA : it’s all connected
Ya can’t shut off the mind. Ya can’t separate the soul from the mind.
Consciousness is consciousness.
if ya want to JOURNEY
V- they journey together… I know… love you (quietly said(
c- seriously, whoever you are, you are by far an expert in all of this… WAKEWALKING… you can always learn (more), but be honest about it.
I don’t know what you are trying to do … but i’d sense it
v- you remember?
c- yes, I remember… if anything, this may have happened in the past already.
be honest about it…
c- I know people need points if references, but you have been traveling FOR YEARS
V- I nnnow I have … with a special partner … who I MISS
19:24 c- well, you chose a different partner, who, unfortunately …
v- a lot less traveled… I kniw
c- like I said: stick her in my place for five years : anyone got that hatter. See how well they’d handle the isolate
v- the big deep dark hole
c- seriously: if you want THIS … give THIS to her…
19:26 c- leave me in peace
c- you are a demon
v- who I am possessing … no that is not what I said
c- what did you say?
v- print… text what just happened?
c- I am typing words