DAY 1836

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13:29 c: scribal / billing humor

13:30 c: Oh, the Mundanity!

the signs are everywhere

there’s a shitstorm (coming)

Scribe is sick of Trickster’s bullshit (has been for years)

if one is not the shit, one should never claim to be the shit

v- haha, lord, stop

13:33

c: I love Pooh

v- oh, I know you do

c: potty time WILL PROVE IMPORTANT (GOT Sam / WMS humor)

13:34 v: _____

c: (chuckling) you are evil. I thought it was funny.

c: what I did NOT find humorous was being awakened throughout the night, and each time I woke up I felt sexually aroused.

Does anyone know what that is like?

to be vaginally stimulated AND NOT WANT TO BE?!?!!!!! When I was trying to sleep … to get enough sleep for another long work day

i passed out on the couch last night after dinner

NOT ENTIRELY due to my own body

but someone else’s activities

v- nonlocally

c- I finally muster enough energy to get myself off the couch … and I don’t go to bed … but I make a batch of WATERCOLORS

because any money I might make right now HELPS

[ I AM ALWAYS WORKING … have been since I was 13 ]

13:39

so, I’m trying to sleep peacefully

but an asshole on the other end of whatever this is

determines HIS HAPPINESS IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANOTHER LIFE

13.39

13:40 c- EVERY TIME I AM AWAKENED

V- you feel sexually stimulated

c- and WHAT IS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD AT THAT TIME?

c- what am I trying to not think about … and still trying to also go back to sleep to get enough sleep

so I can get up in the morning

BE NORMAL

go to a regular job and BE PRODUCTIVE (so I can earn money to be able to pay for some of my bills)

13:41

c- THIS IS MY REALITY

13:41 c- so, PERHAPS SOME DAY some asshole will get enough courage to FACE ME and EXPLAIN what is going on so

1) I do not have to be traumatized DAILY

that’s about it…

when I have an answer I can better MANAGE whatever this is.

Right now?

i have to assume the worst.

I have FACTS displayed - everyone does - about who Jason Silva is, what he does, who he associates with

and a reminder: I am not a person he associates with.

Why would I be, right? (Sarcasm)

46. Mother of two from the Midwest. Not getting by because …

OF ETHICAL CHOICES I MADE … to change my lifestyle

TO ACCOMMODATE WHATEVER THIS IS

TO BE AN HONEST PERSON.

13:47

why would Jason Silva associate with someone who SACRIFICED SO MUCH IN HER LIFE

to accommodate whatever the f—- this is?!?

On a personal level? It ranges from disappointment to insulting.

13:50

c: What’s worse? I CAN’T STOP THIS

I CAN’T SHUT IT OFF

I CAN’T PUT A RESTRAINING ORDER AGAINST the onslaught of interruptions into my life BECAUSE OF A SUSPECTED NONLOCAL CAUSE of

insomnia

energy drains

strange sensations of all types

a voice that I attribute to someone else

13:52

c- so, I am faced with a public figure

Who MANAGES whatever BECAUSE HE CAN.

I CANNOT.

13:52 c: so, I suck it up. I do the normal person thing as best as I can.

[ answering daughter’s text message ]

13:54 c: this has been my life for five years

i want my life back.

I don’t care who is connected to me.

this has been A BURDEN. One that had an easy solution … and is out of my control to resolve BECAUSE IT DEPENDS ON ANOTHER TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT:

tell me what it is or isn’t

13:55

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14:14 c: I do not want to live the rest of my life like this

v- without an answer. I know.

c: financially, i’ll be ok.

V- in a few months

C: … Right now it’s atrocious. Not horrific. Just atrocious. Oh, I hate how I have to juggle. It’s an ugly juggling act, but one that many are familiar with.

v: so, you thought it funny?

c- yes, it made me smile

v- alright …

c- you are a trickster, that’s for sure

v- I have to play the part.

C: of course you do

14:17

—- [ working ]

14:38 c: I’m reverting back to original, and I don’t want this affecting my life moving forward (a Nothing that is like a lifeforce sucking void )

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15:35 c: I want to be happy. ..

I want to be able to live my life with someone

v- together, not apart

15:36 c: the way I am living right now? I have a man inside me…

v- right by your side, c

c- hm, hm. Who is at your side right now, hm?

all I am saying is I deserve to be SEPARATED AND DISCONNECTED from anyone who doesn’t want to be WITH ME in a normal way and set the record straight WITH ME directly and specifically who they are to me / I to them

15:38

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[ workspace moving because of expansion ]

16:55 c: horse’s ass

v- YOU ARE NOT NICE

c- and, no, I have not listened, as I don’t to most of your shit

v- haha, theme for the day

c- hm-hm

17:00 c- i’m Outy…

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17:01 c- whatever you have to say doesn’t help

v- until I’m in front of you. I know.

17:02

[ at light

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🎶ajedrez siniestro🎶

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18:38 (monotone)

c: does she coach about a woman who ignores the torture…

v- WILL YOU STOP

C: just asking, because at some point

v- there’ll be a reckoning

c: just keep taking other people’s cash and at the same time keep a woman in your basement in a pit … THAT’LL KEEP THE CLIENTS COMIN’

18:40

c: geesh. You both are WINNERS

V- will you be nicd

c: from my dark pit : so not believe that they are love and light. I know differently.

v- will you be nice, please?

c- really? You want me to be nice … AS SHE MAKES MONEY FROM ASSOCIATION WITH YOU?

18:42 c- People will see things with perfect 20/20 hindsight clarity.

I have NO IDEA why two people would continue to be like they are …

18:42 c: without the common courtesy to just let one woman know what she needs to know

AND BE DONE WITH IT.

18:43 c- the sad part is: I have NEVER wanted money from any of this

v- just an answer, I know

c- and for that, look at my situation right now.

I want people to realize what a shitty situation this really is… when viewed

v- from your perspective

18:44 c- to my dying day I will never understand how a man who is supposed to be KIND and who everyone adores for being the eliding of love and light

v- can be so cruel

c- it affects my life

18:45 c- and you are an ASSHOLE for posting this - since my sleep has been affected because of all this for FIVE YEARS. W.T.F. is wrong with you?!?!

it is one of THE WORST side effects of all this. I have always treasured my sleep and I haven’t gotten a sound sleep since this all began.

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18:49 c: I’m the one with the same sleeping pattern - I don’t travel the world and into different time zones all the time.

18:50 c: people will be LIVID with you when/if they discover what all I had to endure through all this

18:50

v: you’re not happy

c: why would I be happy? I have a demon possessing me/a ghost that haunts me… and I can’t get rid of this demon/ghost.

18:52

c- and since I’m on another rant

MY LIFE IS NOT A GAME.

I hated that video when you first came out with it, and what it meant to me

i still hate what it means to me.

18:54

v- End Game.

c: discard the ruse and just be honest with me. Just to me, which is all I ever wanted.

v- I know you did.

18:54

c: going to heat up leftovers for dinner.

C: to be weird and be more light hearted

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C: my round corner punched died (BH). I got a new one today.

V- coupon

c- yes, and it will be paid for when I sell the art I’m making with it

v- I love Crafty Scribe

c- yes, I know you do.

18:57

c- I have to point out

v- the ROI

C- because right now I shouldn’t be spending the $7.19+tax on a round corner puncher

v- but you have to make money..

c- it was one of the key tools I needed … so, ANYWAY…

v- it’s bad

c- yeah, it’s bad… so, I’ll be the one who made bad choices based on Nothing.

c- if not for this

v- you wouldn’t have made the decisions you did

c- it’s complicated with my variables …

v- you couldn’t keep living with him…

c- no, I couldn’t … and I jumped without a safety net…

v- I know you did

c- if it were the other way around

v- he wouldn’t have been able to afford it…

c- anyway… complicated life variables

v- yeah, I know

19:01 c- I was just trying to be good

v- I know you were

19:02 c- I just want my life back

v- I know you do

19:02 c- and I never will with THIS

[ shipment notification ]

19:06 c- at least my gum arabic is coming … there’s a story behind THAT purchase, too…

v- gum arabic is one of your key products, too

c- yes, it is … ANYWAY…

dinner

v- and a movie

c- haha.. there are overalls in it

v- oh no..

c- background film noise while I work to prep for tomorrow’s market

19:08

v- there’s painting in this one, too

c- (chuckling) is there? I haven’t seen the movie in many years. it’s me being FUNNY by watching it

v- I see

19:08

19:13 c- I don’t want you in here … (repeated)

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c- your life is not my life… and that is my whole point : IT SHOULDN’T BE (affecting me)

19:23

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22:24 c: AND I AM STILL SENSING ACCELERATED HEARTBEAT

WHAT THE FUCK?!?

Please whoever you are please leave be alone in peace.

I have a life.

i need what little is left of it right now

just to survive.

please stop.

22:26

c- and if RACHEL ROSSITTO were authentic and true ?

she would have done something to FORCE JASON SILVA to come forward to admit to what this is

I don’t care who she is

who she is to Jason Silva or anyone else, but to be someone to ASK MONEY from anyone to COACH them?!? on being a strong(?) woman?

when she is a part of something

so CRUEL?

it is incredibly reprehensible

this is a five year nightmare for me

if Jason Silva is mindbody connected to me?

i am repulsed that HIS GIRLFRIEND would be a voice for the sacred feminine

22:31

c- from my vantage point?

She is an accomplice to human suffering that could EASILY be eased and both of them choose to continue living as if it weren’t happening

22:32

c: if there isn’t a connection between Jason Silva. Fine.

If there is?

Then I have every right to scream my protest.

22:33

v- you really have a problem with..

c- are you KIDDING ME?!

I spent the five years of my life SUFFERING through the Unknown

NEVER asking for money for ANYTHING

22:34

c: I never would.

That is the difference between her and me.

22:35

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22:47 c- if not for this? I wouldn’t give a fuck.

But when I have to be associated with a man like Jason Silva

who I REALLY WOULD NOT PREFER TO BE WITH IF I HAD A CHOICE

anyone he associates with is a part of me

because of this connection

i gave NO CONTROL

NO SAY in it whatsoever.

But I have suffer the consequences.

22:49

22:50 c- I DON’T WANT TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH THE WOO WORLD

with people who model for a career

people who put themselves out there FOR SHOW

22:50 c- she is an insult to everything I have lived for and through since BIRTH.

22:51 c- I work my ass off … for what?

to sense accelerated heartbeat at all hours?

I don’t get to rest

I don’t get peace of mind

22:53 c- because some ASSHOLE deems it not a priority.

Everywhere and everyone else is a priority

and YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

i do NOT mean in here

THAT is far too convenient.

22:54 c- you SHOW UP for the people in your life that are most important to you

I DON’T KNOW : when someone is mindbody linked to you … a part of the very FABRIC of who you are as a person…

i think that would take priority, don’t you think?

it did for me VERY EARLY ON

I have NEVER asked for anything beyond a fucking direct honest answer

and I get FIVE YEARS OF HELL.

22:56

c- and NO. I didn’t get the work I needed to get done

I was ENERGY DRAINED falling asleep on and off

v- because some jackwagon was active on the other end

c- I NEED MONEY TO SURVIVE AND THUS IS PREVENTING ME FROM EARNING EXTRA MONEY TO DO JUST THAT

23:00 my boss gave me the choice to earn some extra cash … but I am SLAMMED with fatigue because of this and I can’t even do THAT during my time at home.

23:01

c- why do you think I am so angry and upset?!?

I WANT MY LIFE BACK.

THIS is preventing me from meeting my EARNING POTENTIAL.

23:02

c- I KNOW that without this fucking condition because of JASON SILVA

i would be fine.

THAT is why I am upset

I CANNOT be independent and make a good living BECAUSE OF HIS LEECHING my life force because if HIS LIFESTYLE.

23:04

c- why do you think he never has complained about this connection affecting his earning potential?

because he can AFFORD to have this connection in his life.

I CANNOT.

23:05

23:06 c- in other NORMAL relationships of any kind?

if a person snores in the same room or in a nearby room you are sleeping in

you get up and move to a quieter location

or move out completely

I CAN’T DO THAT

i awaken because something jars me awake

I sense accelerated heartbeat

heartwarm/heating

Inner wind tunnel

strange unwanted sexual sensations on my genitalia and within me

23:08 and of course the damn voice at all hours

v- I am sorry you are having a hard time

v- i’m Not to blame for everything

c- oh? And when I asked “when do we meet?” nearly FIVE YEARS ago… was that just a stupid question to ask?

v- no, it’s not, c

23:10

c- it was important then as it is now

23:10

c/ I want this over and done with so I can move on with my life

figure out howvto either manage this

or get rid of it entirely

based on whatever existent or nonexistent relationship I have with whoever

v- Jason

23:11