13:29 c: scribal / billing humor
13:30 c: Oh, the Mundanity!
the signs are everywhere
there’s a shitstorm (coming)
Scribe is sick of Trickster’s bullshit (has been for years)
if one is not the shit, one should never claim to be the shit
v- haha, lord, stop
c: I love Pooh
v- oh, I know you do
c: potty time WILL PROVE IMPORTANT (GOT Sam / WMS humor)
13:34 v: _____
c: (chuckling) you are evil. I thought it was funny.
c: what I did NOT find humorous was being awakened throughout the night, and each time I woke up I felt sexually aroused.
Does anyone know what that is like?
to be vaginally stimulated AND NOT WANT TO BE?!?!!!!! When I was trying to sleep … to get enough sleep for another long work day
i passed out on the couch last night after dinner
NOT ENTIRELY due to my own body
but someone else’s activities
c- I finally muster enough energy to get myself off the couch … and I don’t go to bed … but I make a batch of WATERCOLORS
because any money I might make right now HELPS
[ I AM ALWAYS WORKING … have been since I was 13 ]
so, I’m trying to sleep peacefully
but an asshole on the other end of whatever this is
determines HIS HAPPINESS IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANOTHER LIFE
13:40 c- EVERY TIME I AM AWAKENED
V- you feel sexually stimulated
c- and WHAT IS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD AT THAT TIME?
c- what am I trying to not think about … and still trying to also go back to sleep to get enough sleep
so I can get up in the morning
go to a regular job and BE PRODUCTIVE (so I can earn money to be able to pay for some of my bills)
c- THIS IS MY REALITY
13:41 c- so, PERHAPS SOME DAY some asshole will get enough courage to FACE ME and EXPLAIN what is going on so
1) I do not have to be traumatized DAILY
that’s about it…
when I have an answer I can better MANAGE whatever this is.
i have to assume the worst.
I have FACTS displayed - everyone does - about who Jason Silva is, what he does, who he associates with
and a reminder: I am not a person he associates with.
Why would I be, right? (Sarcasm)
46. Mother of two from the Midwest. Not getting by because …
OF ETHICAL CHOICES I MADE … to change my lifestyle
TO ACCOMMODATE WHATEVER THIS IS
TO BE AN HONEST PERSON.
why would Jason Silva associate with someone who SACRIFICED SO MUCH IN HER LIFE
to accommodate whatever the f—- this is?!?
On a personal level? It ranges from disappointment to insulting.
c: What’s worse? I CAN’T STOP THIS
I CAN’T SHUT IT OFF
I CAN’T PUT A RESTRAINING ORDER AGAINST the onslaught of interruptions into my life BECAUSE OF A SUSPECTED NONLOCAL CAUSE of
strange sensations of all types
a voice that I attribute to someone else
c- so, I am faced with a public figure
Who MANAGES whatever BECAUSE HE CAN.
13:52 c: so, I suck it up. I do the normal person thing as best as I can.
[ answering daughter’s text message ]
13:54 c: this has been my life for five years
i want my life back.
I don’t care who is connected to me.
this has been A BURDEN. One that had an easy solution … and is out of my control to resolve BECAUSE IT DEPENDS ON ANOTHER TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT:
tell me what it is or isn’t
14:14 c: I do not want to live the rest of my life like this
v- without an answer. I know.
c: financially, i’ll be ok.
V- in a few months
C: … Right now it’s atrocious. Not horrific. Just atrocious. Oh, I hate how I have to juggle. It’s an ugly juggling act, but one that many are familiar with.
v: so, you thought it funny?
c- yes, it made me smile
v- alright …
c- you are a trickster, that’s for sure
v- I have to play the part.
C: of course you do
—- [ working ]
14:38 c: I’m reverting back to original, and I don’t want this affecting my life moving forward (a Nothing that is like a lifeforce sucking void )
15:35 c: I want to be happy. ..
I want to be able to live my life with someone
v- together, not apart
15:36 c: the way I am living right now? I have a man inside me…
v- right by your side, c
c- hm, hm. Who is at your side right now, hm?
all I am saying is I deserve to be SEPARATED AND DISCONNECTED from anyone who doesn’t want to be WITH ME in a normal way and set the record straight WITH ME directly and specifically who they are to me / I to them
[ workspace moving because of expansion ]
16:55 c: horse’s ass
v- YOU ARE NOT NICE
c- and, no, I have not listened, as I don’t to most of your shit
v- haha, theme for the day
17:00 c- i’m Outy…
17:01 c- whatever you have to say doesn’t help
v- until I’m in front of you. I know.
[ at light
c: does she coach about a woman who ignores the torture…
v- WILL YOU STOP
C: just asking, because at some point
v- there’ll be a reckoning
c: just keep taking other people’s cash and at the same time keep a woman in your basement in a pit … THAT’LL KEEP THE CLIENTS COMIN’
c: geesh. You both are WINNERS
V- will you be nicd
c: from my dark pit : so not believe that they are love and light. I know differently.
v- will you be nice, please?
c- really? You want me to be nice … AS SHE MAKES MONEY FROM ASSOCIATION WITH YOU?
18:42 c- People will see things with perfect 20/20 hindsight clarity.
I have NO IDEA why two people would continue to be like they are …
18:42 c: without the common courtesy to just let one woman know what she needs to know
AND BE DONE WITH IT.
18:43 c- the sad part is: I have NEVER wanted money from any of this
v- just an answer, I know
c- and for that, look at my situation right now.
I want people to realize what a shitty situation this really is… when viewed
v- from your perspective
18:44 c- to my dying day I will never understand how a man who is supposed to be KIND and who everyone adores for being the eliding of love and light
v- can be so cruel
c- it affects my life
18:45 c- and you are an ASSHOLE for posting this - since my sleep has been affected because of all this for FIVE YEARS. W.T.F. is wrong with you?!?!
it is one of THE WORST side effects of all this. I have always treasured my sleep and I haven’t gotten a sound sleep since this all began.
18:49 c: I’m the one with the same sleeping pattern - I don’t travel the world and into different time zones all the time.
18:50 c: people will be LIVID with you when/if they discover what all I had to endure through all this
v: you’re not happy
c: why would I be happy? I have a demon possessing me/a ghost that haunts me… and I can’t get rid of this demon/ghost.
c- and since I’m on another rant
MY LIFE IS NOT A GAME.
I hated that video when you first came out with it, and what it meant to me
i still hate what it means to me.
v- End Game.
c: discard the ruse and just be honest with me. Just to me, which is all I ever wanted.
v- I know you did.
c: going to heat up leftovers for dinner.
C: to be weird and be more light hearted
C: my round corner punched died (BH). I got a new one today.
c- yes, and it will be paid for when I sell the art I’m making with it
v- I love Crafty Scribe
c- yes, I know you do.
c- I have to point out
v- the ROI
C- because right now I shouldn’t be spending the $7.19+tax on a round corner puncher
v- but you have to make money..
c- it was one of the key tools I needed … so, ANYWAY…
v- it’s bad
c- yeah, it’s bad… so, I’ll be the one who made bad choices based on Nothing.
c- if not for this
v- you wouldn’t have made the decisions you did
c- it’s complicated with my variables …
v- you couldn’t keep living with him…
c- no, I couldn’t … and I jumped without a safety net…
v- I know you did
c- if it were the other way around
v- he wouldn’t have been able to afford it…
c- anyway… complicated life variables
v- yeah, I know
19:01 c- I was just trying to be good
v- I know you were
19:02 c- I just want my life back
v- I know you do
19:02 c- and I never will with THIS
[ shipment notification ]
19:06 c- at least my gum arabic is coming … there’s a story behind THAT purchase, too…
v- gum arabic is one of your key products, too
c- yes, it is … ANYWAY…
v- and a movie
c- haha.. there are overalls in it
v- oh no..
c- background film noise while I work to prep for tomorrow’s market
v- there’s painting in this one, too
c- (chuckling) is there? I haven’t seen the movie in many years. it’s me being FUNNY by watching it
v- I see
19:13 c- I don’t want you in here … (repeated)
c- your life is not my life… and that is my whole point : IT SHOULDN’T BE (affecting me)
22:24 c: AND I AM STILL SENSING ACCELERATED HEARTBEAT
WHAT THE FUCK?!?
Please whoever you are please leave be alone in peace.
I have a life.
i need what little is left of it right now
just to survive.
c- and if RACHEL ROSSITTO were authentic and true ?
she would have done something to FORCE JASON SILVA to come forward to admit to what this is
I don’t care who she is
who she is to Jason Silva or anyone else, but to be someone to ASK MONEY from anyone to COACH them?!? on being a strong(?) woman?
when she is a part of something
it is incredibly reprehensible
this is a five year nightmare for me
if Jason Silva is mindbody connected to me?
i am repulsed that HIS GIRLFRIEND would be a voice for the sacred feminine
c- from my vantage point?
She is an accomplice to human suffering that could EASILY be eased and both of them choose to continue living as if it weren’t happening
c: if there isn’t a connection between Jason Silva. Fine.
If there is?
Then I have every right to scream my protest.
v- you really have a problem with..
c- are you KIDDING ME?!
I spent the five years of my life SUFFERING through the Unknown
NEVER asking for money for ANYTHING
c: I never would.
That is the difference between her and me.
22:47 c- if not for this? I wouldn’t give a fuck.
But when I have to be associated with a man like Jason Silva
who I REALLY WOULD NOT PREFER TO BE WITH IF I HAD A CHOICE
anyone he associates with is a part of me
because of this connection
i gave NO CONTROL
NO SAY in it whatsoever.
But I have suffer the consequences.
22:50 c- I DON’T WANT TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH THE WOO WORLD
with people who model for a career
people who put themselves out there FOR SHOW
22:50 c- she is an insult to everything I have lived for and through since BIRTH.
22:51 c- I work my ass off … for what?
to sense accelerated heartbeat at all hours?
I don’t get to rest
I don’t get peace of mind
22:53 c- because some ASSHOLE deems it not a priority.
Everywhere and everyone else is a priority
and YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
i do NOT mean in here
THAT is far too convenient.
22:54 c- you SHOW UP for the people in your life that are most important to you
I DON’T KNOW : when someone is mindbody linked to you … a part of the very FABRIC of who you are as a person…
i think that would take priority, don’t you think?
it did for me VERY EARLY ON
I have NEVER asked for anything beyond a fucking direct honest answer
and I get FIVE YEARS OF HELL.
c- and NO. I didn’t get the work I needed to get done
I was ENERGY DRAINED falling asleep on and off
v- because some jackwagon was active on the other end
c- I NEED MONEY TO SURVIVE AND THUS IS PREVENTING ME FROM EARNING EXTRA MONEY TO DO JUST THAT
23:00 my boss gave me the choice to earn some extra cash … but I am SLAMMED with fatigue because of this and I can’t even do THAT during my time at home.
c- why do you think I am so angry and upset?!?
I WANT MY LIFE BACK.
THIS is preventing me from meeting my EARNING POTENTIAL.
c- I KNOW that without this fucking condition because of JASON SILVA
i would be fine.
THAT is why I am upset
I CANNOT be independent and make a good living BECAUSE OF HIS LEECHING my life force because if HIS LIFESTYLE.
c- why do you think he never has complained about this connection affecting his earning potential?
because he can AFFORD to have this connection in his life.
23:06 c- in other NORMAL relationships of any kind?
if a person snores in the same room or in a nearby room you are sleeping in
you get up and move to a quieter location
or move out completely
I CAN’T DO THAT
i awaken because something jars me awake
I sense accelerated heartbeat
Inner wind tunnel
strange unwanted sexual sensations on my genitalia and within me
23:08 and of course the damn voice at all hours
v- I am sorry you are having a hard time
v- i’m Not to blame for everything
c- oh? And when I asked “when do we meet?” nearly FIVE YEARS ago… was that just a stupid question to ask?
v- no, it’s not, c
c- it was important then as it is now
c/ I want this over and done with so I can move on with my life
figure out howvto either manage this
or get rid of it entirely
based on whatever existent or nonexistent relationship I have with whoever