DAY 1833 and still no contact via normal channels (e-mail, text, DM, phone call, mail, in-person) - still no peace (of mind / body ) in my life
thus post demonstrates the range of everyday sensorial distractions I face at this point.
What does ZERO DEPTH mean?
I find it extremely superficial for Jason Silva to act one way to the general public and then, on the other hand, treat another individual as if she were a No one to him - if I am no one to him, then say as much… or maybe the silence & absence are my answer? : I am a No one to him…
if this is a mindbody connection? not to come forward to me personally and privately just to let me know what is going on to let me know what kind of a connection it is (who we are to each other)…? I should know after five years of this shit.
KNOWING matters. Knowing would have helped me make better choices, having known exactly what the variables of my life were.
I have had to make choices based on what now has become five years of NOTHING… I have made moral decisions based on what now is Nothing.
My life has been affected because of whatever THIS is.
[ I wake up every 1-2 hours due to a self-diagnosed nonlocal source (suspect: Jason Silva) - I do it know what jars me awake, but in any case, my sleep is disrupted. I need my sleep before a long work day … ]
Cool fresh air pet back of throat
[ disruptions while at work. More concerns. I continue to have no explanation for these continued sensations that interrupt my life ]
08:36 subtle temple pressure ( TP )
SAHB soft faux fur warm inner sense
09:00 a bit more SAHB
09:08 making love sense (coming to me nonlocally)
C- you know I worry ... and you know why
09:19 soft wrap and eCaress [ I don’t know what this is & I try to not think what it could be … ]
10:22 ongoing subtle TP
Ecaress to full body inner chill
C- stop ... stop ...I am at work
11:21 subtle TP cool fresh air
12:40 blood coursing
Taking lunch so I can get up and move around to shake off this fatigue
soft floofy sense [ making love sense - again, a concern, what is this that I am sensing?!? I am trying to not think what it could be (mindbody rape) : Distracting while I am trying to work ]
15:23 right ear high pitched ting (like a pressure change)
ongoing soft floofy high sense
SAHB subtle blood coursing
cinnamony slight cool upper back palate of mouth
18:13 waiting in car - getting oil change for company car
still ongoing chillaxy liquidity
on couch resting after a long day at work
21:32 in bed
22:45 heated. “Drug” heated
[ I fall back asleep only to be awakened again at 00:35 DAY 1834 ]